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We tend to have a lot of repeated threads here, but I also get the feeling people don't tend to post in /emo/ unless it's a big issue. |
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Off the top of my head Yoga with Adriene is pretty good. She has a day by day 30 challenge which might be perfect for you. Do try to get some fresh air as well. |
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Anyone else been in a weird state of mind over the past few days? Angry or depressed? |
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I don't know if this is minor or not, but I've just had a breakdown all thanks to a council gritter. |
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Good thread OP. If nobody responds to this it isn't the end of the world, it'd be nice just to vent. |
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Anglosphere_2007_overweight_rate.png I like thin women. But the world is becoming fatter and it is affecting my ability to feel sexually aroused. The number of people I encounter that I find physically attractive has dropped to the point where I feel sexually frustrated. |
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ap0BQMn_700b.jpg >>23586 |
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original.jpg I'm at the end of my research thesis. I just need to get <10k words down which should be done by after Christmas if not before. |
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0803_marathon-women.jpg >>23595 |
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tumblr_mhbbtwezVH1qjdniso4_1280.jpg >>23602 |
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tumblr_lojps3w9lM1qjdniso1_1280.jpg >>23604 |
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large.jpg >>23611 |
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f39f876e9e846d63f4fbc096617489cf.jpg >>23615 |
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Look what you did, you Ana chasing filth. Look at what you started. Look! |
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stahp.jpg >>23614 |
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432px-USObesityRate1960-2004.svg.png >>23594 |
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Trump-sad-face.jpg >>23621 |
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I've recently returned to education part time to fix some grades that I fucked up the last time I took the course and I increasingly find myself questioning why I bothered. Well actually I know exactly why I bothered; I'm hoping to hook a control room operator job in a CCGT power plant for some sweet easy ££££ but when I met and got to know the others on the course I felt a bit left behind as there are some very ambitious people on the course, I am also frustrated at the slow pace the course is going and find myself increasingly uninterested in the subjects at hand. |
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This morning I woke up. I think that was a mistake and I regret it. Instead of just going back to sleep I decided to solider on and now I feel just awful. Out of a sense of decorum I decided drinking vodka at 8am wasn't the way I wanted to manage this, and instead watched a, and I use the term in the broadest sense here, ‘documentary’ on netflix where they mashed a bunch of interviews from comedians talking about how miserable they all are together, then I went for a walk round the park and back. Everything was as dull and as mediocre as it was the last time I went there except because it was 10 am on a Sunday there were grubby noisy humans everywhere. |
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How can I turn myself off? Like a computer, just switch off, and switch back on some time later? I'm getting tired and I need to shut down for a couple of years. |
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Temazepam.jpg >>23679 |
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I am filled with sorrow. I'm finding it hard not to burst into tears in public a lot. |
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How does one get over a fear of rejection & failure? |
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Lads has anybody had a week or two where they don't feel themselves ever? What did you do? |
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Just delete the fucking posts. Click the Anonymous. |
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Dear Santa, |
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My aunt is kind of a snobby bitch who always comes up to me at family gatherings and says insulting things in a subtle enough way that it takes me a moment to figure out what she was actually saying, by which point she's sidled off. I'm quite tempted to buy her some sort of children's toy "from santa, to help you keep your mind active". |
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image.jpg Mostly fuck Christmas. I never get to see my family, I never get to see friends, I never get to party and I can't talk to anyone about it. I've chosen this career and it's all my own doing, but sometimes the fucking loneliness, which I was well aware of in the beginning, gets a bit much. |
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I've been with my gf for a few years but I have a weird (and maybe unique?) problem. I get jealous over things that happened _before_ I met her. Say she's tagged in a picture from years ago where she happens to be having fun I will get a horrible pang of envy possibly because she dared to look happy without me. It is painful and I can feel it in my stomach and chest. |
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I am bored. |
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Every time I scroll past that OP image I think it's Alexander Armstrong. |
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>>I wouldn't say I'm depressed- I've been truly depressed before, and this doesn't feel like that. I just feel listless, numb, bored. |
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I've been feeling down to the point where I have been actively battling suicidal ideation every waking hour this past week. I can't find the motivation to take any greater steps, just hanging on is all I can manage. |
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You can't beat death. |
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I have the most amazing and supportive girlfriend, who has put up with so much shit from me due to me being a mentally ill fuck up. She'd do anything for me, and talks often of marriage and kids, and we're meant to be moving in together in a few months after 2 years of dating. |
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The desire to be wiped out completely off the face of the earth grows within me. |
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My state of mind flipflops so wildly recently and I don't know why. I'd describe myself as hypersensitive. |
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3D3244F000000578-4222534-image-a-6_1487067737852.jpg I got upset over the treatment of possibly trolling, more likely horribly real and needing to vent nonenglishspeaking deathbedlad on this board, posted on /shed/ and was accused of being deathbedlad, as was someone else who questioned it after me. I got surprisingly upset about all of that and really hope there is some reason people think he was trolling for attention. I nearly came close to full-scale teary 'I am leaving gs forever' territory accompanied by a list of the marvels and memorable posts I have introduced to this place since 2010, but didn't. |
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What is my purpose? |
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survivestyle50750xd.jpg >>24254 |
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You know that thing lassies do where they flirt with you and say things which give you the impression of being interested, but then also just blatantly ignore your communication for hours/days on end? |
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pizza.jpg >>24293 |
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What is a good reason to not kill yourself? |
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You know that thing where you're just completely blagging it through life, and somehow you're just getting away with it all? You know, you bullshit all day at work, you lie your way through awkward situations, you make things up as you go along and hope it works out. |
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Just going to bump this thread. For the first time in almost a year I've had actual isolated time to myself. It hasn't gone well. I had a lot of alcohol and it resulted in lots of shouting, bruised knuckles and lots of tears. For the past almostyear I've been socialising a lot, traveling through different countries and all that, I think it distracted me. Turns out that if I'm left by myself I'm exactly the same as before I set out to do all that, If that makes sense. Left to my own devices I think I'm just done and it's a matter of time. |
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I have nothing to say yet want to be heard. |
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Huh, I forgot about this thread but for the previous posters, >24555 was me. For what it's worth it's not alcohol that makes me feel that way though I understand why people think that, it really does just help me cope, I can get a good cry in and let some things out much easier (always by myself) then pass out easily too. If I don't drink and have sessions like that then I spiral more and it gets much worse, I fixate and don't sleep and oddly alcohol has kept me here at least. I'm aware that's not a good thing probably. |
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It is so liberating to be so brain-damaged that you forget about things that happened years ago, people you have met, things you did, etc. Sometimes I play along and act like I know what the fuck-off memory some of the cunts around me are talking about. |
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Sometimes, I feel very happy, and sometimes I feel very, very down, irritable and just wishing that I would not wake up from my sleep forever. I think this is wearing down my friends and family because they see me as really happy and joking around with them one time, and just really closed off and pissed off at other times. |
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Lately I have found myself experiencing a certain longing when I watch TV shows that involve best friends and how they do stuff together. Even the X-Files. The reason being that I used to be best friends with a girl I knew for over 10 years and we'd hang out so much we really grew into each other, kindred spirits I guess. You' know how when you know someone so well you can communicate without saying anything - just with a look like you have some hidden language. |
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I was going to wish my ex happy birthday today (well, yesterday) on the f.book. We hardly talk now, but in the process I saw the chat log of our break up and I became bitter, resentful, in pain and close to tears and decided it was best not to talk to her in case I acted on that feeling. |
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b4e2efe390b6e06ff75f4783d5e75afa.jpg >>24892 |
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Untitled.png >>24893 |
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My cunt brain doesn't work. |
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I've become fundamentally crap at taking care of myself, in the most fundamentally basic ways. |
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I'd just like to say my cunt brain is doing alright at the minute. |
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I care more about the people I'm employed to look after than myself. Much more. They are fantastic, and I have no idea why I'm still here. |
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I feel as though my time with .gs may be drawing to a close, and it's making me sad. |
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I really hate summer. Makes me very depressed. |
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Sometimes, when I'm squeezing out the last few squirts of a piss, a little nugget of shit pops out and nestles between my arse cheeks. |
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Does anyone know if there's a kind of careers/life advice service available for adults. In the past year or so my mind has got so cloudy and I struggle conceptualise things properly and as I result I feel a bit stuck. I have lots of ideas of things I want/wish to do but I can't quite get it together or explain it. |
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Dating is shit. Socialising is shit. I keep trying but nobody seems to follow it up when I initiate things. Feels lonely. |
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I'm a 28 year old 'NEET', overweight and lead a very inactive lifesytle. I barely engage in my interests outside of playing games on the computer. It wouldn't take a great deal of effort to change this but I lack the meaning and enthusiasm to do so at the moment. |
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No1.gif >>25148 |
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Wow, I'm glad I'm just in a shallow pool of melancholy and not the actively manic and frequently delusional head space I was at a month ago, otherwise I might have done something properly mental (like expecting IAPT to have helped me). |
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Things get worse. They don't get better. |
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Screenshot 2017-07-21 at 23.36.34.png >>25163 |
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After 5 years of not smoking, I have gone back to smoking because I feel less suicidal and depressed. Does that make any sense? I started a couple of weeks back and I have just been okayish and sometimes even happy. I socialise better. I'm not moody and cutting everyone off. I switched to vaping, and although it was weird, I am doing just fine. |
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I'm going to spend two weeks in the middle of nowhere in Europe, with no alcohol, drugs or cigarettes. I feel like I might die, but if that's how it goes, it goes. |
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Why does my worldview seem so right while other peoples so wrong? How does it feel right, deep down, as if principle? |
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Why can't I just be a little bit drunk all the time? I know this is like the Inebriati but honestly everything is so much better with the right amount of drink. I'm switched on. I'm actually motivated to do things. I get tipsy and I read, I clean, I get exercise. What's bad about that? |
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I feel like Venlafaxine might have been made by the devil himself, or at least had its creation funded by the bastard. |
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I haven't had alcohol in almost a week. I'm surrounded by mountains and forest. Perhaps the best way to be rid of something is to go where it isn't. |
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I feel like my moral code has become so distant from modern societies that I feel like John Savage in Brave New World seeing fault in everything. |
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I'm starting to wonder the effect of consuming others creation rather than generating my own. All I'm doing is laying myself as the foundation for their worldview. If I don't want that is it fair to expect others to uphold mine? |
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There's an awful lot of 'Bash the fash' stuff going on over on facebook with people advocating non-violent resistance being labelled Nazi-sympathisers and subsequently ejected from the echo chambers. |
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A.png >>25314 |
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C992HjJXgAAKmwL.jpg >>25326 |
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Okay that's enough politics in /emo/. |
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The more I talk the more vulnerable I feel. |
>> | No. 25356
25356
>>25354 |
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25357
>>25356 |
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>>25357 |
>> | No. 25378
25378
I feel restless - like I want life to end already. |
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25379
>>25378 |
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>>25379 |
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>>25380 |
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>>25383 |
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>>25385 |
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>>25271 |
>> | No. 25525
25525
I have barely left the house for the last couple of weeks, and when I went out to the shop earlier I felt an undeniable social phobia. I never realised before how I need to maintain the skill of being outside with joe public. |
>> | No. 25646
25646
My girlfriend keeps nagging at me to visit my parents more often and for some reason it's proper winding me up. |
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25648
>>25646 |
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25649
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>>25649 |
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>>25646 |
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>>25651 |
>> | No. 25661
25661
She's the only thing that's made me happy all year but I'm too miserable to send her a text. |
>> | No. 25662
25662
im still in that job, surprised i havent offed myself |
>> | No. 25670
25670
>>25662 |
>> | No. 25675
25675
sitting.jpg >>25670 |
>> | No. 25676
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>>25652 |
>> | No. 25677
25677
I think I'm a serial seducer. |
>> | No. 25678
25678
>>25677 |
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25679
>>25677 |
>> | No. 25680
25680
Untitled.png >>25677 |
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>>25680 |
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>>25684 |
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>>25686 |
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>>25687 |
>> | No. 25689
25689
You people are talking about deciding whether you are sexually attracted to someone within the first few minutes of meeting them is something unique to the female psyche. |
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>>25689 |
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>>25690 |
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>>25690 |
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>>25689 |
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>>25692 |
>> | No. 25696
25696
Started back at uni again, taking another repeat year. Went to the welcome back lecture and felt so out of place. I'm incapable of making friends and basic social interaction, even though I've been here for years. Want to go to society events to get out of the house, but know when I get there I'll freeze up and be unable to talk to people. Feel like a failure of a human. Autism is suffering. |
>> | No. 25697
25697
>>25696 |
>> | No. 25698
25698
Basement rug.jpg I'm worried I'll become suicidal if I fail my next ESA reassessment (Or PIP, whatever they're doing there). I'm also worried that if I tell them this they'll interpret it a a threat or ultimatum. The only way I can think to explain this to them is "I don't mean for this to be a threat but I fear I might commit suicide if rejected". I don't know if suicide is true but I'm certain I will struggle with my mental health considerably. |
>> | No. 25699
25699
>>25696 |
>> | No. 25700
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>>25696 |
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25701
>>25698 |
>> | No. 25712
25712
I'm going back to do my masters just for something to do, but I really like living in new places so that's a plus. |
>> | No. 25715
25715
If I find her attractive she's too good for me. Feels bad, yo. how do I raise my self image? |
>> | No. 25716
25716
>>25715 |
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25717
>>25715 |
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>>25716 |
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25724
>>25716 |
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>>25724 |
>> | No. 25728
25728
Realised today that a load of people inexplicably unfriended me from their Facebooks with no communication, and it really bummed me out. I can't think of an particular motive beyond blind speculation, it seems like small petty shit to be worked up over, a web app that I hardly use, but I consider that a symbolic declaration they don't want me in their life ever again and it's hard not to feel rejected by that, particularly when these are people I've known for years. |
>> | No. 25729
25729
>>25728 |
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25730
>>25729 |
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25731
>>25730 |
>> | No. 25738
25738
Me and my girlfriend are probably going to break up pretty soon, her issue with me is only that I am not multiple people, and I don't feel like compromising on that point. I wasn't expecting this I have no exit strategy. I feel a bit lost in how to focus on what I should do next, I don't have a job and I've got less than £100 and until this morning when my living arrangement changed I was ineligible for benifits. |
>> | No. 25739
25739
>>25738 |
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>>25739 |
>> | No. 25747
25747
cool-duct-tape-art-carved.jpg What is it I feel when looking back on my life through the medias I absorbed as a youngster? What I mean is .. when listening to System of a Down again (what can I say) I realise where a lot of the thoughts I have these days come from, or at least where they were catalysed. Music seems to be the major one, it tends to be where we identify most (as such could it be said music is a purer form of art?) |
>> | No. 25748
25748
>>25747 |
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>>25748 |
>> | No. 25774
25774
I don't care about anything and it's starting to scare me. I just can't give a fuck about fuck all. I could fall under a train and I'd only be bothered by the momentary discomfort. |
>> | No. 25775
25775
>>25774 |
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25776
>>25774 |
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25777
>>25776 |
>> | No. 25778
25778
SexyLimmy.jpg >>25776 |
>> | No. 25779
25779
I don't know who is edgier, the people who claim not to care about anything to the point of suicide, or the people who encourage them to do it. |
>> | No. 25780
25780
>>25779 |
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25781
>>25779 |
>> | No. 25782
25782
The bank has sent a letter informing me that I am due to start paying back the loan for my research degree on the 30th of this month. I thought I had until the end of January but I was wrong. I've not finished my thesis yet and I know it won't be done and dusted by the 30th. Even the end of January felt like a stretch with the viva and getting over this writers block I've had for months. |
>> | No. 25783
25783
>>25782 |
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>>25783 |
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>>25784 |
>> | No. 25786
25786
How do you cope without anyone to talk to and no support network? |
>> | No. 25787
25787
>>25786 |
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25788
>>25786 |
>> | No. 25790
25790
>>25786 >>25787 |
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>>25788 |
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>>25791 |
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>>25785 |
>> | No. 25794
25794
Can you book a doctors appointment by just walking into the surgery itself? I wanted to tomorrow, but I'm going to run out of credit tonight so I can't call. |
>> | No. 25795
25795
>>25794 |
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>>25795 |
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>>25796 |
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>>25793 |
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>>25798 |
>> | No. 25800
25800
I keep sending weird messages. |
>> | No. 25801
25801
>>25800 |
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25802
>>25800 |
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25803
>>25800 |
>> | No. 25804
25804
Pffft! Fucking hell, I'm 23 in a month. I know that's not remotely old or anything but I swear I was 19 about 15 minutes ago. I really need to get my shit together. Football Manager considers the cut off for personal progress to be 24 and who am I to disagree? |
>> | No. 25806
25806
So I'm being chased for debt from 02 for a phone contract I fucking cancelled two years ago. |
>> | No. 25807
25807
>>25806 |
>> | No. 26165
26165
How do I stop making others' feelings my problem? |
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26166
>>26165 |
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>>26165 |
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>>25806 |
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>>26168 |
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>>26178 |
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>>26168 |
>> | No. 26197
26197
I'm tired of the endless cycle of committing myself to someone, only to have them give up a few years down the line. I just don't have the energy for it all anymore. |
>> | No. 26198
26198
>>26197 |
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>>26198 |
>> | No. 26203
26203
Minor relationship advice please: |
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>>26203 |
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>>26203 |
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>>26203 |
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>>26203 |
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>>26207 |
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>>26208 |
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>>26208 |
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26211
>>26209 |
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26212
>>26211 |
>> | No. 26408
26408
A girl from work is leaving and I am really going to miss her. |
>> | No. 26409
26409
>>26408 |
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26411
>>26408 |
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26412
>>26408 |
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26414
>>26408 |
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26423
>>26414 |
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26426
>>26414 |
>> | No. 26427
26427
Scout_doing_the_Home_Run_taunt_TF2[1].png >>26426 |
>> | No. 26484
26484
Increasingly I am thinking this will only end one way. |
>> | No. 26548
26548
Always goes the same way: |
>> | No. 26549
26549
>>26484 |
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>>26548 |
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>>26550 |
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>>26550 |
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>>26550 |
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>>26557 |
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>>26558 |
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>>26560 |
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>>26561 |
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>>26563 |
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>>26563 |
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>>26564 |
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>>26566 |
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>>26566 |
>> | No. 26597
26597
It'd be nice to have at least one parent who didn't need to be pissed by early evening just to get through a day. |
>> | No. 26598
26598
>>26597 |
>> | No. 26599
26599
Not sure if this is the right thread to post this in, but I'm beginning to learn that women don't react well to being 'ghosted'. |
>> | No. 26600
26600
>>26599 |
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26601
>>26600 |
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26602
>>26601 |
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>>26600 |
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>>26603 |
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>>26605 |
>> | No. 26615
26615
I've been on a bunch of dates recently but never get as far as progressing things beyond a second meeting. The latest one has just ghosted me after saying they wanted to hang out again. Don't get what I'm doing wrong really. Is it inevitable to go through this much rejection as a guy? |
>> | No. 26617
26617
>>26615 |
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26618
>>26615 |
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>>26615 |
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>>26619 |
>> | No. 26622
26622
I've basically got an hour of mental energy per day and then I go bonkers and curl up like a dead Woodlouse. |
>> | No. 26623
26623
My mood has been inexplicably low for the last 24 hours. I'm beginning to wonder if my doctor prescribed me a placebo instead of mood stablisers as an experiment. Posting in this thread rather than starting a new one because i don't think there is really any constructive advice emo can give me that I don't know and haven't given myself. I just want to have a moan anonymously. My brain is broken no one has a good fix for it, and it leads to spontaneously shitty days. Meeting with the doctor next week maybe they will increase my dose or reveal the ruse and give me something functional. |
>> | No. 26624
26624
>>26623 |
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>>26624 |
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>>26624 |
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>>26626 |
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>>26627 |
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>>26628 |
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>>26629 |
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26631
>>26630 |
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>>26629 |
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26645
>>26632 |
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26647
>>26645 |
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26648
>>26645 |
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>>26647 |
>> | No. 26719
26719
>go check on your very first ex |
>> | No. 26721
26721
pic unrelated.png I've just realised the seriousness of a health condition I'm being tested for. |
>> | No. 26722
26722
>>26721 |
>> | No. 26726
26726
Got stood up for a date last night. I'm not angry. More perplexed. |
>> | No. 26727
26727
My life's going down the shitter. Being evicted, so had to find a new house fast. Found one, it's a bit of a shithole, but it was the only place that would allow a cat. Had to use all my savings and borrow money off mine and my partner's family to afford the £1500 to move. Now I'm broke, can't afford stuff we need for the house like a fridge, and I've gotten really ill. Too ill to work, but on a zero hours contract so not like I can get signed off and get sick pay. Every night all I can think about is killing myself. I feel like obstacles keep coming up and it's not worth living anymore. At least if I'm dead I don't have to deal with all this tedious shit. |
>> | No. 26728
26728
>>26727 |
>> | No. 26729
26729
>>26728 |
>> | No. 26730
26730
What's the point in the crisis team? I phoned them and told them I'm hearing voices and I'm suicidal, they told me that I should write down my problems as that'll help me overcome them. |
>> | No. 26731
26731
>>26730 |
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26733
>>26731 |
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26734
>>26730 |
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>>26734 |
>> | No. 26858
26858
I didn't sign up for this whole "existing" thing. I can't say I like it all that much; I know it's no great revelation but you do things you hate so you can survive to do more things you hate. |
>> | No. 26859
26859
I think I'm going to kill someone. Just go out and stab a random stranger. At this point it seems like the only way to get help for my mental health. I've had six years of being tossed around on various waiting lists, tried a whole bunch of medication, tried all sorts of changes to my life. But nothing is working. I can't live like this anymore. |
>> | No. 26861
26861
>>26859 |
>> | No. 26862
26862
>>26858 |
>> | No. 26863
26863
DoomsdayClock_black_2mins_regmark.png >>26862 |
>> | No. 26864
26864
>>26861 |
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26869
>>26864 |
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26870
>>26869 |
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26874
>>26870 |
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26875
>>26874 |
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26876
>>26875 |
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26880
>>26876 |
>> | No. 26892
26892
Why am I like this |
>> | No. 26893
26893
>>26880 |
>> | No. 26894
26894
Becausr you're a stupid mentalist. |
>> | No. 26895
26895
I need to talk to someone but feel like I'm constantly burdening everyone with my pathetic, inane shit. |
>> | No. 26896
26896
>>26895 |
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26897
>>26895 |
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26898
>>26892 |
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26899
>>26898 |
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26900
>>26899 |
>> | No. 26901
26901
>>26900 |
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26902
>>26899 |
>> | No. 26923
26923
My only mate text me a couple of days ago to see if I'm free over the next month, but I can't be bothered to text him back. I'm sure we'd have plenty of fun, but I'm just such a waster, and everything's going so well for him, that it takes such a lot out of me to make out like I'm not on the verge of just smashing my head against a brick wall at any given minute. I hope that doesn't sound like I'm blaming his presence for any of this, because I'm like that regardless, it's just easier to paper over the cracks when there's no one else around, or, indeed, not bother to in the first place. |
>> | No. 26924
26924
>>26923 |
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26925
>>26924 |
>> | No. 26926
26926
>>26925 |
>> | No. 26927
26927
>>26926 |
>> | No. 26928
26928
Think I talked myself out of a relationship today by taking the position that I think some feminist groups unintentionally seek to undermine the principal of 'innocence until proven guilty' in sex crimes by shifting the burden of proof, in a way that opens up the risk of abuse of the system that would be a greater evil. They didn't like that. |
>> | No. 26929
26929
>>26928 |
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>>26928 |
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26931
>>26929 |
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>>26931 |
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26934
>>26931 |
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26935
>>26934 |
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26936
>>26934 |
>> | No. 26937
26937
>>26936 |
>> | No. 26938
26938
We're getting dangerously close to a cunt off in /emo/, lads. Let's get back to being sad, please. |
>> | No. 26939
26939
>>26937 |
>> | No. 26940
26940
>>26939 |
>> | No. 26941
26941
STOP IT |
>> | No. 26942
26942
>>26941 |
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26943
>>26942 |
>> | No. 26944
26944
Icecream.jpg >>26943 |
>> | No. 26945
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>>26944 |
>> | No. 26946
26946
I was just thinking about the britfa.gs favicon, and the fact that it's blue because at the time first class stamps were gold and it looked much worse than the blue 2nd class in a tiny icon. |
>> | No. 26947
26947
Men like things |
>> | No. 26948
26948
>>26947 |
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26950
>>26948 |
>> | No. 26951
26951
>>26947 |
>> | No. 26952
26952
MEN AND WOMEN ARE TOTALLY DIFFERENT IN ALL WAYS AND I'M NOT JUST TALKING OUT OF MY ARSE |
>> | No. 26953
26953
>>26931 |
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26954
>>26952 |
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26955
>>12555 |
>> | No. 26956
26956
What is it with you lads and women? |
>> | No. 26957
26957
>>26954 |
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26958
>>26956 |
>> | No. 26959
26959
Well it was a nice emo thread we had once. Let the /pol/ cunt off begin. |
>> | No. 26960
26960
>>26959 |
>> | No. 26961
26961
>>26960 |
>> | No. 26962
26962
I think I have to break up with my partner. I've swung back and forth about it over and over the past few months, but I think push has really come to shove now. Nothing specific has triggered it, it's just not going away, so. |
>> | No. 26963
26963
>>26962 |
>> | No. 26964
26964
>>26962 |
>> | No. 26965
26965
You (>>26963) and I (>>26964) are very very different people. |
>> | No. 26966
26966
>>26965 |
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26967
>>26966 |
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26968
>>26964 |
>> | No. 26977
26977
My girlfriend seems to have developed this weird selective memory where she decided she doesn't want to go out to events and then later blames me for it that we haven't gone. I've literally gone to events with out her at this point mutiple times because she pulled out of doing them. But no it is my fault we don't go out together. |
>> | No. 26978
26978
>>26977 |
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>>26978 |
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>>26977 |
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>>26980 |
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>>26981 |
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>>26982 |
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>>26983 |
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>>26984 |
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>>26985 |
>> | No. 26996
26996
My partner's support for this evening's news about my aunt's spinal graft failing and getting infected and my having to go into work tomorrow and ask for compassionate leave so I can hopefully so visit her before the infection spreads and she goes unconscious lasted all of 15 minutes before he started whinging about his job and completely failed to do any of the tasks he'd offered to. So instead I then did the washing up, empty and bag and re-do taking the bins out because he put waste in the wheelie bin unbagged (?!), and got glass in my toe from the kitchen floor, the kitchen floor he'd said he'd vacuum on Sunday and that task, also, never happened. I've just finally managed to get the bastard shard out with tweezers after much painful poking around, so at least I can do all the walking I need to do to get to the hospital in London to go maybe see my aunt before she dies. |
>> | No. 27009
27009
>>26996 |
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27010
>>26996 |
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27012
>>27009 |
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27034
>>26996 |
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>>27012 |
>> | No. 27044
27044
mVZs6Ce.jpg Just something to get off my chest. |
>> | No. 27045
27045
>>27044 |
>> | No. 27069
27069
So, I did it, I broke up with my girlfriend. I bit my tongue all week because I didn't want to have to make her go to work in the morning with the weight of it on her mind, and needless to say she was completely blind-sided. |
>> | No. 27071
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>>27044 |
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>>27069 |
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>>27086 |
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>>27087 |
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>>27088 |
>> | No. 27090
27090
>>27089 here. I'd like to add if "drugs" means weed then I take it all back and she's a massive bitch. Otherwise my point stands. |
>> | No. 27092
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>>27089 |
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>>27092 |
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>>27097 |
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>>27097 |
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>>27100 |
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>>27102 |
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>>27104 |
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27131
A small update: I got the text to say she'd died about 30 minutes before I pulled into Euston when I went down last week. Funeral's tomorrow, had to take Thursday and Friday off as annual leave because there's no fucking way I'm going to be in a state to go in after putting her to rest. At least she's not in massive amounts of pain from having a broken back any more, that's something good to take from this I guess. |
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>>27131 |
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>>27131 |
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>>27120 |
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>>27131 |
>> | No. 27266
27266
I've fucked up everything, drifted my way out of uni after one pathetic year, can't muster the energy to put a CV together and I just feel constantly pissed off all the time. |
>> | No. 27267
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>>27266 |
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>>27267 |
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>>27266 |
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>>27268 |
>> | No. 27275
27275
I can't stop myself from obsessing over mistakes I made half a year ago that have ruined my happiness and severely altered the course of my life since. I'm trying to get away from the people involved by starting a new job but probably I'm just turning my back on people who would support me. But I hardly care any more, just feels like I'm doomed to fuck everything up. |
>> | No. 27276
27276
>>27275 |
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>>27268 |
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>>27275 |
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>>27269 |
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>>27280 |
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>>27280 |
>> | No. 27307
27307
In the times of whinging about the shite hand fate had dealt to me I sometimes re-call that there are folks who have had it even shittier. While that doesn't really make me feel better it reminds me that it could be worse. Trite and banal, yes, but that's where I'm at in the moment. |
>> | No. 27308
27308
It's probably time to reevaluate your life when you end of listening to The Postal Service at gone midnight because a girl almost half your age who you met on Tinder used some of their lyrics as the caption to a photo she posted on Instagram. |
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You keep arguing about Pokemon and neither of you will have to worry about women anymore. |
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>> | No. 27321
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I see the age gap thing crop up on here a lot, but in my own experience, there's only so far you can go with 'we both remember pogs'. I saw a 20 year old for a bit when I was 28, if anything our different memories of childhood fads was a talking point rather than a brick wall. I think that sort of age gap isn't particularly massive though, we're essentially the same generation, only real difference is that the internet was slower for me. Maybe it's different for you 35+ year old lads who had a truly different childhood, at least in terms of the digital age. |
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Thinkin’ ‘bout suicide again, tea-bee-aitch. |
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>> | No. 27333
27333
I broke up with the Mrs a month or so back and whilst I'm mostly glad of it, doing alright, when I'm working on my own or have nothing to do I occasionally get into this cycle of thought that makes me quite angry and indignant about the whole thing. |
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Barring the misogyny guff, I've realised I'm basically every /r9k/ stereotype in the book. Oh, I'm clean shaven as well. Whenever I try thinking about my problems I get so overwhelmed as to be rendered fucked, I really can't stand it. However, I'm sure I will anyway. |
>> | No. 27377
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I met a girl, we had a great time together. After 3 dates within a week and a half I can feel myself falling for her. I don't think I've ever felt this way about someone so soon. |
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It is pretty difficult to make a short, succinct post here. It feels like if you're putting in the effort to make a post, you may as well flesh the thing out. I |
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Someone ffixmy life for me, because I just can't do it by myself. |
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>>27415 |
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27417
How do I make friends? I've been going to uni societies and I just stand there in awkward silence unable to connect with anyone. Even though I share interests with them I just feel like a perpetual outsider. |
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I think I'm going to go to the Christian Union's events, as people will talk to me with the ulterior motive of converting me to Christianity, but at least it'll give me practice talking to other people. And maybe I'll find salvation or something. |
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27424
I don't mean to sound like every shit counselor you've ever had, but sunshine really does me a lot of good, especially after spending all weekend in my dingy wank dungeon of a room. |
>> | No. 27433
27433
Going to quit my job. It'll be the third job I've quit after one shift in less than year. My mental illness is a real barrier to me being able to work, but I feel like a loser for letting it get the best of me. |
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>>27433 |
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>>27433 |
>> | No. 27436
27436
Jumped off the wagon on Sunday with another half baked suicide attempt that just left me passed out for thirty six hours. Again. Missed all my psych appointments so I don't have my meds. I feel like the biggest mug on earth, fighting back against a disease that can't be beaten. |
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This isn't really /emo/ but I can't think where else to put it and it's too trivial to warrant its own thread. |
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>> | No. 27451
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I didn't find it odd when the normal post people would call me by my forename or whatever when I saw them several times a week. I just wondered how someone I see once every three months would know that I'm "always" in, but I guess he was extrapolating from the fact I'm always in when he calls four times a year. |
>> | No. 27452
27452
I read a stupid unscary Reddit creepypasta |
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>>27450 |
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Capture.png >>27453 |
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I was in Sainsbury's and I normally get jacket potatoes when I only have three left and I had four so wasn't sure if I wanted them. I saw four reduced ones so thought "fine". They were mildly green. |
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>>27496 |
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27498
It's been almost five years since I told a girl something along the lines of "When am I going to fall out of love with you? The last few times I’ve been in love it’s only ever gotten any better when I’ve fallen in love with someone else, and we both know that's not going to happen any time soon.". |
>> | No. 27518
27518
Intentional dehydration is the GOAT self-harm technique. |
>> | No. 27520
27520
800px-The_Mummified_Monk.jpg >>27518 |
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>>27519>>27520 |
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>>27518 |
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27523
Everyone has nicer teeth and more success than I ever will. |
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mobester.jpg >>27539 |
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image.jpg >>27541 |
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>> | No. 27546
27546
28 years on this Earth and I have finally figured out how to deal with arseholes. It's so fucking simple I just never thought of it before... |
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>>27546 |
>> | No. 27553
27553
My girlfriend just tearfully told me she slept with someone while we were forced into a long-distance relationship for a couple of years. I told her I don't really care - in fact secretly I'd love an open relationship. Wondering how I can now use this to put that on the table. |
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I didn't stop drinking all night, ended up on the mind website but I couldn't stop myself from crying hysterically for long enough to make a coherent phone call. I should call my psychiatrist. |
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>>27560 |
>> | No. 27625
27625
Psychiatrist is refusing to allow me to go back on a medication I stopped because he thinks my depression and anxiety, which have both got markedly worse since I came off the medication, is just my normal personality. Considering going to the GP and getting them to prescribe me it, as it was working before the psychiatrist told them to take me off it. |
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>>27625 |
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>>27635 |
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yourenotalice.jpg >>27636 |
>> | No. 27670
27670
I think I need new friends. Like, a totally new social circle without any of the baggage of my current one. We haven't fallen out, but various recent events and circumstances make me think it'd be better for my mental health if I could move on and keep different company. |
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>>27670 |
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1529819969340.jpg >>27674 |
>> | No. 27698
27698
I had the most wonderfully sordid activity planned out with an attractive young lady I was chatting to on an online dating site and then her account disappears entirely. I'm not sure if she got cold feet and blocked me, if she was cat fishing and decided to block me/was banned. |
>> | No. 27727
27727
What's the next step down from suicide? If topping yourself isn't an option, what can you do? |
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27728
>>27727 |
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>>27728 |
>> | No. 27741
27741
Been to visit the family this weekend. Within 5 minutes of arriving they commented on my weight loss (I used to be obese, now I am just overweight), which is fair enough, but they made me weigh myself so they could see how much I weigh, which made me uncomfortable. Then every meal I ate over the weekend they'd be saying stuff like "careful with that, you might get back to 20 stone again" and shit like that. It's just unnecessary and I don't see why they did it. I guess they think it's banter, but it is something I'm quite sensitive about (and something which is difficult to control considering I'm on two medications that cause weight gain). |
>> | No. 27742
27742
>>27741 |
>> | No. 27743
27743
It bothers me slightly that even though I barely know her yet I'll never be able to listen to that song again for the rest of my life without thinking of her, and that even though we haven't broken up yet I can feel it coming in the missing words between the beats of her sentences. |
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>> | No. 27765
27765
My girlfriend does my fucking head in. She'll insist that we have to do something that I don't really want to, and then gets all stroppy and down when she realises I don't enjoy the thing we are doing, and I’m only doing it for her benefit. This makes me feel like shit, but I can't really do anything because I feel like an arsehole if I tell her 'I am already doing the thing, to make you happy! It is unrealistically entitled of you to expect me to have to like it!' so I just keep my mouth shut, then she gets upset because I've closed off. |
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>> | No. 27780
27780
I've just found out that my stepdad's brother has died. I know I'm supposed to do something, but I've got no idea what. I'm not particularly close to my stepdad and I only met his brother a couple of times. In all honesty I don't really give a shit, but I don't want to seem like a heartless bastard. I think I'm going to practice my sad face in the bathroom mirror. What are some good platitudes for a time like this? |
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>> | No. 27788
27788
If mental health is supposed to be getting the same level of treatment as physical health why in the name of heck do they keep offering me talking therapy? |
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>>27788 |
>> | No. 27793
27793
I've realised stimulants often make me calmer and even tired. Friends have joked I'm the only person they've ever seen have a nap right after a line of coke or bombing speed. I usually have espresso to help me sleep, too. The internet seems to think it's because I have undiagnosed adhd, though I can imagine a Gp's reaction to a 30 odd year old bloke coming in with that one. |
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>>27795>>27796 |
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>>27830 |
>> | No. 27832
27832
iu.jpg I can't remember the last time I had a 'good' day. |
>> | No. 27833
27833
Editing my CV made me so nervous I now feel to sweaty to leave the house, but I lack the 20 pence needed to print it off at the library anyway, so who fucking cares. |
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>>27832 |
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>>23560 |
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>>27835 |
>> | No. 27837
27837
at least you tried.png My depression is right on top of me today. I forced myself to go out and go to a salsa class instead of wallowing in bed. Now I'm dressed up nice in a bar waiting for it to start and feeling worse and wishing I was wallowing in bed. |
>> | No. 27838
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>>27837 |
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>>27842 |
>> | No. 27845
27845
All that the girl I'm seeing seems to do is have anxiety attacks, avoid trying new things because she has no confidence in herself, cry in her room and talk to nobody aside from one or two people she knew from school. She doesn't try to impose any of this on me but because it is so all consuming it's all I hear about. |
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>>27845 |
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27850
I'm definitely going a bit weird. |
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>>27851 |
>> | No. 27860
27860
If it weren't for the pangs of anxiety in my chest, I could almost be said to be... no, I'm definitely not happy, but I'm a little bit chipper. Kind of. |
>> | No. 27861
27861
Last night I had a recurring nightmare, it involved fighting the same shapeshifting monster in different settings when I defeated them in one setting I 'woke up' in the next, but the worst reality of the all was the last one the one where I was actually awake. |
>> | No. 27862
27862
matrimonio.jpg >>27861 |
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>>27862 |
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>>27861 |
>> | No. 27889
27889
Of you lads who are married, or who intend on marrying; without wanting to seem suffering Sour Grapes I do hope that the love stays alive, because this divorce process had suddenly become quite harrowing. |
>> | No. 27890
27890
>>27889 |
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>>27832 |
>> | No. 27895
27895
Also, just noticed >>27835 below my original post. |
>> | No. 28018
28018
Don't mean to brag, but it only took me five hours to leave my blanket tent this morning. |
>> | No. 28019
28019
>>27895 |
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>>28019 |
>> | No. 28022
28022
Managed to get dumped by the missus last night, apparently she didn't get the hint that she was in the process of being dumped herself. Either that or she just wanted to get the last word in. In either case I couldn't be arsed to force the issue. |
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28023
>>28022 |
>> | No. 28025
28025
Trying = Failure |
>> | No. 28030
28030
I think I'm suffering from getting old. |
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28039
Fine you win, You know more at 20 than you will at 30,40,50 or 60, because your grandparents are senile. |
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28100
Just when things were starting to look up, even just a little, life reminded me with the force of a steel-toecapped boot to the face that I'm not allowed to be happy, and not being in a constant state of unbearable stress and self-loathing is a luxury only afforded to other people. |
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>>28100 |
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28130
I woke up today fully intending to do plenty of important business but I just feel as low as a stinky smear of shoe scraping. It frustrates me so much that I'm like this, and worse at times. It's as though everything I do takes four times longer and several times the effort it should, but I doubt I'm living well into my three-hundred's to compensate. |
>> | No. 28131
28131
I've been ill for a week and in fairly constant pain. I'm beginning to wonder if I need medical treatment but my stoic nature means I am not getting the attention I need, as I calmly explain myself rather than barking like a seal when in agony so doctors presume it can't be that bad. |
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28135
>>28131 |
>> | No. 28146
28146
Time wil tell as to whether looking up her Insta was the best or worst idea I've ever had. |
>> | No. 28147
28147
I've noticed this year seems to be the year of despair. I don't know if it's all the shit going on in the world but a vast majority of people I talk to have suddenly gone all doom and gloom, everybody seems depressed. It's actually kind of refreshing knowing we're all essentially in the same boat. |
>> | No. 28148
28148
>>28131 |
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thanks-satan_o_2682895.jpg Constant pain lad >>28131 here. I got some high strength codeine from the GP. I don't think I've slept so well in 20 years, or felt this refreshed and relaxed in the morning. Makes me wonder if I have just been in low level pain all that time. If I knew this was what I was missing I would have started a heroine addiction years ago. |
>> | No. 28154
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>>28153 |
>> | No. 28155
28155
Diagnosed as autistic and struggle with bad mental health. Under the care of a local mental health team. I've tried lots of different talking therapies and medication, I've explored pretty much every angle I can with my mental health, the only avenue I've not explored is treatment tailored towards my autism. LMHT have tried referring me to my city's autism team several times over the last few years, but they refuse to see me until I'm mentally stable. But I fear I won't be mentally stable until I get that specialist autism support. So I'm in a weird limbo of hoping my problems magically get better so I can then get the support I need for them. |
>> | No. 28156
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>>28155 |
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28157
Wow, I really, really miss having friends and stuff. |
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28158
Never seen your own face.jpg >>28156 |
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>>28158 |
>> | No. 28160
28160
I don't really want to talk about this because it's just depressing and there's really no bright side, but can anyone else not stop thinking about dying? And if so, how do you react to that? Because I think I'm supposed to feel like I'm involved in some kind of time trail, but I actually just want to pretend nothing is happening and therefore I can't die, in a kind of sealed off unreality where no one else is allowed in. |
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>> | No. 28192
28192
I just want my phone to be fixed. |
>> | No. 28193
28193
I'm not a real person. I'm just a shell. There's nothing going in my head, I don't function, I don't think and I don't move. |
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>>28206>>28202 |
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>>28207 |
>> | No. 28210
28210
I got stood up by someone yesterday, I don't get how people can be so cowardly. |
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28211
>>28210 |
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>>28217 |
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28219
I hate not having money. I'm lucky to get enough to just about get by, but I don't really get enough to put some to the side, so if something came up at short notice I'd be fucked. My partner is in a similar position, being in debt (not loads thankfully) meaning she can't save up despite getting a fairly decent wage. It'll take us a fair few years to save up a deposit for a house, which is fine, I just hate the uncertainty of renting. At our last house, the landlord gave us six weeks notice to vacate the property, and knowing that could happen at any time just terrifies me. I have such a fear of uncertainty, but I know I can't do anything to stop it. |
>> | No. 28229
28229
So, any one else who's ever been incredibly lonely, what are your coping strategies? I've used a bunch over the years but it feels like I've gone from being on the roof to standing on the ledge to holding on to it with both hands, then one. Then people start greasing the ledge. |
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28230
>>28229 |
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>>28230 |
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>>28219 |
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>>28229 |
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28234
It likely won't be while I'm in my twenties, but as I'm unlikely to ever improve my lot, I feel I'm very likely to top myself one day. I just don't see it ending any other way. |
>> | No. 28235
28235
>>28234 |
>> | No. 28236
28236
Anyone have any experience on lithium? I'm in the process of having the physical health checks to see whether I can start on it. Not looking forward to the weekly blood tests until the lithium level in my blood reaches the required amount. And the stuff I've read is making me worry it's going to fuck up my kidneys and/or my thyroid. But I also read it's very effective for treatment resistant depression so it's worth a shot, just worried because the side effects seem pretty grim. |
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28237
>>28236 |
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>>28236 |
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>>28237 |
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28240
>>28239 |
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28241
>>28239 |
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28242
>>28239 |
>> | No. 28251
28251
I need to dump my bird, unfortunately she has some not inexpensive tickets to visit me as well as tickets for a gig at the start of April. This puts me in the unenviable position of either dumping her now and leaving her in the shit or plastering on another fake smile and attempting to get through the next couple of weeks before dumping her after she's gone home. Christ. |
>> | No. 28252
28252
>>28251 |
>> | No. 28253
28253
I really, really hate myself and feel like I live behind a façade of performance and irony to deal with being so emotionally stunted and weak. |
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28254
>>28253 |
>> | No. 28255
28255
Apparently on Saturday night I was in three different bars; this is something that'd I've patched together from whatsapp messages and instagram stories as I have no memory at all of leaving any one of the bars on my personal odyssey. |
>> | No. 28256
28256
Basically nothing is happening and I still can't handle it. I'm just done. |
>> | No. 28257
28257
Nope, something is happening and it's even worse. |
>> | No. 28258
28258
Self-immolation is the answer. |
>> | No. 28259
28259
>>28254 |
>> | No. 28260
28260
I have no direction in life. I'm in my eighth year as an undergrad, having changed courses and repeated years several times. Been told this is my final chance - if I fuck this year up, I can't continue with uni. And I've already used up all the funding Student Finance will give me. The reasons for picking each course I've been on have been shit reasons, and with hindsight I probably should have left after my third year and properly thought about what I wanted to do while I still had funding. I'm more than capable of doing well, when I do the work it gets good marks, but I have no passion which makes getting anything done difficult. I also have pretty severe mental health problems, which has made engaging with my course very difficult. Every time I've taken time out or had to redo a year, I'd say to myself "this time you'll get well enough to finish", but every year I get worse and worse. Contemplating dropping out, getting a full time job and saving up to fund something I actually want to do a few years down the line. But if I can barely handle 10 hours of uni a week, I don't know how I'll handle 40 hours of work a week. |
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28261
>>28260 |
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>>28260 |
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>>28230 |
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28294
I'm useless. |
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28298
>>28294 |
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>>28298 |
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28304
>>28303 |
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28309
shit boys i think i'm done |
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28310
>>28304 |
>> | No. 28312
28312
bojack jogger.jpg >>28310 |
>> | No. 28314
28314
Citizens Advice is shit by the way. |
>> | No. 28315
28315
My depression is getting worse and worse. I feel worse now than I have in the past when I actually attempted suicide. My medication keeps being changed so I'm in limbo waiting for it to kick in. I feel completely consumed by depression - in the past I've been too depressed to function normally, but was still able to find the motivation to watch TV or play a game. But now I have no energy to do anything. I sleep 12-15 hours a day, and when I'm not asleep I'm just lying awake in bed. It's just getting harder and harder to function. |
>> | No. 28316
28316
I never realised how stressful something as simple as being in a group chat could be. It's quite a tight-knit group and I know they wouldn't have invited me if they didn't want me to talk in it but it feels like every time I send a message people are gonna be annoyed with me, or that people won't want to hear if I had anything to say. |
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>>28316 |
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>>28317 |
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>>28315 |
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28320
>>28317 |
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>>28312 |
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28323
>>28322 |
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28430
I'm in a group of friends whom I enjoy the presence of and wouldn't want to alienate for the world. The problem is, most of them are really deeply into astrology. |
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28431
>>28430 |
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28432
>>28430 |
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>>28430 |
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28435
>>28432 |
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28437
>>23560 |
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28438
>>28437 |
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28439
>>28438 Thank you. |
>> | No. 28441
28441
I've not showered or brushed my teeth for three days. I've been in bed approximately 20 hours a day for the last two weeks. I feel totally unable to live a normal life. I've been dealing with depression for about 8 years and this is the worst I've ever been. Been on lithium about six weeks and it doesn't seem to be helping. I don't know how much longer I can exist like this. |
>> | No. 28443
28443
I really miss talking to people. It's been about eighteen months since I last spoke to someone who wasn't a parent, or employed to figure out what my bloody problem is. |
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28444
>>28443 |
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>>28448 |
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28450
>>28449 |
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>>28446 |
>> | No. 28452
28452
I just can't care about chronically mentally ill people any more. Alcoholics, bipolar, super insecure people, the whole range of things. |
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28453
>>28452 |
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28454
Kitten on mushrooms.jpg >>28452 |
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>>28454 |
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28456
depression.jpg >>28454 |
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>>28456 |
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>>28454 |
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>>28460 |
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>>28462 |
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>>28458 |
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28466
20190502_163344_compress_16.jpg >>28465 |
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>>28466 |
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28469
>>28466 |
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>>28467 |
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28474
Why wouldn't anyone help me? |
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28475
>>28474 |
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28477
>>28475 |
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28478
>>28477 |
>> | No. 28479
28479
How can I get my head to shut the fuck up? I don't fancy getting pissed for the 4th day in a row, and plus drinking initially makes all the shit more intense for a while. |
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28480
>>28479 |
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>>28477 |
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28515
>>28507 |
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28516
>>28513 |
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28517
>>28516 |
>> | No. 28518
28518
Fuck. I just fucked a resit exam. I've got one more to do and my continuation of the course rests on that, but I overestimated how well I'd been revising so didn't book much time off work this week. |
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28519
>>28518 |
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>>28520 |
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>>28522 |
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>>28523 |
>> | No. 28538
28538
I've run out of options. I've tried various therapies, I've tried various medications, I've tried moving back home, I've tried suspending uni, I've tried working a job, I've tried everything I can think of, and things are only getting worse. I don't see a future for myself anymore. If it wasn't for my mum and my girlfriend I wouldn't be here. I'm so exhausted that I feel like this, but I don't know what else to try. |
>> | No. 28539
28539
I think I'm better being alone. |
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28540
>>28539 |
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28541
>>28538 |
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28542
>>28539 |
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>>28538 |
>> | No. 28544
28544
I've almost certainly fucked my maths exam significantly enough that I've failed my course, before even gaining a qualification. It took me 3 years to get to this point, and I've not even passed first year at uni. Nothing to show for it. No idea what I'm doing next year, no idea how to look for a real job now. |
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28545
>>28544 |
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>>28545 |
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>>28547 |
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28549
>>28539 |
>> | No. 28550
28550
I've come to the conclusion that its not that I'm depressed. It is that the world I live in is painfully sterile. I need stuff to matter, decisions with risk and real dangers the lizard brain can comprehend. How do I find stimulation when trapped deep in city life where most peoples idea of an adventure is attending some novel evening entertainment? And when you go to peoples houses they want to discuss the choice of handles on their kitchen cupboards like they matter. |
>> | No. 28551
28551
>>28550 Would a somewhat-risky job help? Courier, agriculture, TA (plenty more). Or something that means you'd be so shattered at the end of the day that introspection would have to wait... |
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28553
>>28550 |
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>>28550 |
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>>28551 |
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>>28556 |
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28558
4311200046.jpg >>28550 |
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28559
>>28558 |
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28560
>>28550 |
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28561
>>28560 |
>> | No. 28578
28578
I submitted an extenuating circumstances for my massive-fuck-up of an exam session, on the fairly legitimate basis that I might actually be an assburger. Autism well and truly ticked. |
>> | No. 28579
28579
I had a pretty mental time over the weekend that consisted of not leaving the house, planning for voluntary homelessness and being convinced family members were trying to poison me, but right now I'm feeling positive. I need to stop dreaming anout being two years in the past and start doing my best to get back there, in a metaphorical sense, you understand. |
>> | No. 28580
28580
>>23560 |
>> | No. 28581
28581
You know how when there's a party or a night out, it always reaches that kind of apex point, everyone's at their most wankered, and you know it's nearing the end. It won't be long before people start slouching off to find somewhere to collapse, or getting taxis, and everything winds down. But there's usually one or two people who refuse to let go, they want to keep going, they end up lingering on or splitting off by themselves trying to keep the torch burning long after everyone else has fucked off. |
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>>28581 |
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28583
>>28581 |
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>>28582 |
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>>28584 |
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28587
Think I'm going to be sacked from my retail job. Manager took me to one side and said my customer service is transactional, and whenever any member of staff tries to talk to me I seem zoned out and "we don't know if anything is going in". Told him before I was on a lot of meds for mental illness, and today I told him I'm diagnosed as autistic. He was nice about, and asked if they can do anything, but I don't think there's anything that can be done. |
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28588
>>28587 |
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28589
>>28587 |
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28590
>>28588 |
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28591
I got a job with a driving agency. |
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28592
>>28590 |
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28593
Multi city round trip flights: £3000 |
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28594
>>28593 |
>> | No. 28600
28600
Do I want to quit my job and travel? Is this really my last chance before I'm too old? Do I even want a middle management job? Maybe I should be grateful for the good steady money coming in. Do I like this girl enough to say I love her or do I say it because it's better than being alone? Why is it that now I've got everything I wanted I don't feel any happier and am willing to throw it all away on a roll of a dice for a better prospect? Why is it that if my life is so good I am watching youtube videos of 'Nature TV' staring at the nice beaches and forests pretending I'm there and not in my urban flat with the sound of busses flying past every five minutes? Is this my life? How do I even make this feeling go away? Is this normal? |
>> | No. 28601
28601
>>28599 |
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28602
>>28594 |
>> | No. 28603
28603
I'm very anxious, for the first time in years in fact. I often find my breath "catching", by which I mean I have to take a second to compose myself and actually begin to inhale. It happens whenever I'm outdoors, even if there isn't anyone around. I also recall I posted about this flippently elsewhere but I can't go to bed without thinking about dying somehow, and if I do drift off I often wake up after having a brief but violent dream of some description. It's really hampering my sleeping and I've slipped into a 4AM-11AM routine for the first time in years. |
>> | No. 28604
28604
>>28603 |
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28605
>>28604 |
>> | No. 28606
28606
I have a very mild problem with coming to terms regarding my age. Especially whilst re-visiting places I'd been at about 20 years ago last time. A wee lass I remember laying on the baby scales, crying as if there'd be no tomorrow, is almost a fully grown woman now. Quite different traffic patterns, as well as the cars that make it. |
>> | No. 28607
28607
>>28604 |
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28608
>>28606 |
>> | No. 28609
28609
Today my goals are: shower, cut my own hair, use trade and barter to get my phone fixed. I hate myself and I hope the world ends. |
>> | No. 28610
28610
>>28608 |
>> | No. 28611
28611
How do you deal with the fact that nobody wants you? I'm really struggling with just accepting loneliness but I feel like if I can do it then it pretty much takes care of all my problems. Any tips? |
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28612
>>28611 |
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28613
>>28612 |
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28614
>>28613 |
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28615
>>23560 |
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28616
>>28615 |
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28617
>>28616 |
>> | No. 28626
28626
My god, after all the years I've been trying to get more mental health help, the trick is not wanting it... |
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28627
>>28626 |
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28629
>>28627 |
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28630
>>28629 |
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>>28630 |
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28633
>>28632 |
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28635
>>28633 |
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28636
>>28635 |
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28637
>>28636 |
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28638
>>28635 |
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28639
>>28638 |
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28640
>>28639 |
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>>28640 |
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>>28646 |
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>>28647 |
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28649
s-l1600.jpg How much did you want to reduce your dosage by? Pill-cutters are extremely cheap on eBay but they obviously couldn't do 9/10ths or something. |
>> | No. 28650
28650
>>28649 |
>> | No. 28652
28652
Someone turned up at the door, I ignored it they posted a note saying they missed me and asking if I'd like to reschedule. Glad there wasn't some sort of a whispering campaign in their office after I told them on the phone I wouldn't answer the door where they escalated to the absurd and broke in my door in the name of their moral duty to check I was safe from harm. |
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28653
>>28652 |
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28654
>>28652 |
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28655
>>28652 |
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28657
>>28655 |
>> | No. 28658
28658
1560351152524.jpg I want beauty in my life. A beauty beyond the setting sun, beyond wildlife. I want someone to know me and to tell me it's all right. I want freedom from my perversites. I want innocence. |
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28659
>>28657 |
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28660
>>28659 |
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28661
>>28658 |
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>>28660 |
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>>28662 |
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>>28663 |
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>>28664 |
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28666
>>28647 |
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28673
Lying about absolutely everything is more emotionally draining than I remember. |
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28674
>>28666 |
>> | No. 28684
28684
She said she loves me the first time we drunkenly fucked. It was my first time for 10 years (second total). |
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28685
>>28684 |
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28686
>>28684 |
>> | No. 28687
28687
I can't stand not even being tired, but still feeling completely done in and hopeless in a way that makes everything ten times more effort. It's just not even worth waking up some days. |
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28688
>>28685 |
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28689
>>28688 |
>> | No. 28690
28690
For the past week or so, from the second I wake up, until the second I go to bed, I have had an overarching sense of dread. It's starting to realise physically too, in the form of chest pain. |
>> | No. 28691
28691
>>28687 |
>> | No. 28701
28701
I can't do anything, I've gotten too weak, if I try I just come apart at the seams. I've lost all the ground I'd taken and now everything's so different I just don't know what to do. It's not even like no one cares, there just isn't anyone left to care. Just thinking about it is overwhelming. I can't access any answers the doctor gives, but I don't know where else to go. Took me the best part of six hours just to wash myself, assuming we aren't including the two day build up to just that. |
>> | No. 28729
28729
I've had my current job for 6 months now. |
>> | No. 28746
28746
What kind of evil cunt messages you on your birthday to drivel a load of self-pitying wank, retconning all their previously stated reasons for unceremoniously dumping you however many months ago and replacing them with some bullshit "I thought that splitting up was for the best not just for me but for you too, I was making your life difficult" reasoning while layering on the "I think you about you and stare at your whatsapp profile photo every day hoping to see you pop up online just so I know you're out there still" guilt trip crap? And on top of it all making me construct the most infuriatingly run-on sentences out of pure rage. . |
>> | No. 28747
28747
>>28746 |
>> | No. 28749
28749
Due to mild obsessive-compulsive disorder, I am constantly plagued with odd sentence fragments, like a song stuck in your head. For the past few weeks, the words "cum dungeon" have popped into my mind several hundred times per day; they are slowly being replaced by "wreck my shitter". |
>> | No. 28753
28753
Does anyone want to be my second referee on a volunteering application? Or send me fifteen pounds, please. Or what's a good way to work up enough of a head of steam to top yourself? |
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28754
>>28746 |
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28755
>>28749 |
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28757
>>28754 |
>> | No. 28763
28763
keogh1.jpg Am i a faggot? Most of the porn i use involves women. Occasionally feminine looking men. Very rarely actual male looking men. |
>> | No. 28764
28764
>>28763 |
>> | No. 28766
28766
I'm mildly anxious about the recent development of the 'quality control' department at work. Whilst it shouldn't influence my workplace directly, it actually might. |
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28767
>>28766 |
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28768
>>28767 |
>> | No. 28770
28770
My relationship is ending because my misses has decided she doesnt want to live with me or anyone ever after 3 years of us living together, and I am not accepting of a relationship where we don't live together. It is rather hard not to feel underappreciated right now. |
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28771
>>28770 |
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28772
>>28771 |
>> | No. 28773
28773
I just watched that After Life and it was probably a mistake. It only served to remind me that you never truly get over losing someone you're in love with, no matter how hard you work to convince yourself that you can. I liked the show but I was disappointing that it ended on a predicable high note. I stay around because I know I can make people's lives better in even the smallest of ways, but I'll never, ever be okay with the fact I couldn't do enough to stop her from ending hers. |
>> | No. 28776
28776
1564075584240.jpg I've been on ESA & DLA for a good 7 to 8 years. Since my initial claim i've developed ways to manage my condition. I have not told the DWP this. I justify this by thinking the time and funds allow me freedom from excess stress - ie the only reason i'm able to be well is because i don't have to work. |
>> | No. 28792
28792
Stories of people successfully overcoming mental health issues just make me feel like more of a failure. |
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28793
>>28792 |
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28794
>>28792 |
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>>28794 |
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28796
>>28795 |
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28797
>>28793 |
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28798
>>28792 |
>> | No. 28800
28800
Should I exile myself to homelessness or just kill myself? I can't function and no one wants to help me. |
>> | No. 28801
28801
I've grown too old to be at home on the old boards I used to frequent, but I'm not normal enough to find common ground in more sedate and mundane boards like this place. The internet has become as foreign a place as the 'real world'. |
>> | No. 28804
28804
Fuck me, I wish I'd been aborted. |
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28805
>>28804 |
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28806
>>28805 |
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28807
>>28801 |
>> | No. 28811
28811
I build a head of steam to change things up for myself, but before I even get going I'm reminded what a useless, duplicitous, cunt I am and I lose all motivation for another week or so. |
>> | No. 28812
28812
>>28806 |
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28813
>>28811 |
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28816
A lot of the time when i'm having a wank i can't help but think 'these are just people in their room, touching themselves'. It happens too when i'm eating, or drinking, or buying something portioned out into 8 peices tucked up in plastic as if that's what a human needs, as if that what a human is. Maybe it's consumption. I just feel sometimes that we're a dirty species, that's we're an embarrassment in all the things we do while living. Like fucking clowns, man. |
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>>28816 |
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>>28811>>28806 |
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I'm starting to realise that, contrary to my previous posts, picking yourself up out of depression isn't as easy as i'd previously made it out to be. The philosophy is still there, just the willingness to practice is lacking. It's much easier for me to believe my previous comments were like cutting water with scissors while i'm in this state, and i'm not even that far gone to be honest. |
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>>28826 |
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I've realised binge eating is my anger management strategy. |
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>>28827 |
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>>28836 |
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>>28837 |
>> | No. 28851
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We're proper fucked now, lads. Not long until the feedback loop starts, the next 3-5 years are going to bring great and brutal change so this way of life is pretty much done. It's sort of freeing in a way, there's a weight off now nothing really matters. Going to try and live in the moment more and travel for the next couple years, while doing a shit load of drugs. Enjoy the ride down. |
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>>28851 |
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>>28851 |
>> | No. 28860
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I feel awful and reading about a man who raised £20,000 to take his cat on holiday didn't help one bit. |
>> | No. 28881
28881
I feel like a right cunt, but I don't know if I should. |
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>>28881 |
>> | No. 28892
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At the chip shop i usually ask for a chicken pie, and they've come to know that i mean a chicken and mushroom pie. only yesterday i was served by an unknown person so i asked properly. The regular worker gave me a bit of a look, then when she handed me the package she called 'chips and a pie'. with audiable italics. |
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>>28892 |
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I can't stop eating and wanking. Haven't crossed the streams yet so that's a plus. |
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>>28894 |
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My dick aches but i don't know if it's from too much or too little wanking. |
>> | No. 28901
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My relationship is cold and dead but I'm still trapped living with my Ex till I can find a job. |
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>>28901 |
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>>28902 |
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>You basically called Jeremy Kyle a hippie. |
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>>28906 |
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Finally in from a night out. It was a good friend's birthday so I was semi-obliged to go. |
>> | No. 28931
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Burying my best mate today and I managed to travel halfway across the country only to forget my proper trousers. A shit day just got worse. |
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>>28931 |
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I'm not sure if it's just a bad day every other day or if I should really just hand my notice in and get out of my current job before I lose it. |
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>>28935 |
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>>28937 |
>> | No. 28939
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Alright. One more day of sitting about tossing it off reading wiki pages and then tomorrow is going to be the day you start sorting your life out. Do the dishes, put some washing on, good grief man. |
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>>28939 |
>> | No. 28941
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Knowing you're going through a mental break/heading for a breakdown but just sitting there and letting it come is a wild fucking ride. |
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>>28941 |
>> | No. 28943
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That manner of posting is rightly unnacceptable, but you modsods better not have given him one of your piss-takingly long bans, by which I mean anything over an hour. |
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>>28943 |
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I wake up every morning as me. I wouldn't wish this fate on anyone. |
>> | No. 28946
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Whenever I consider suicide I think that if I've reached a point where it seems like a viable option, I may as well just live as if I'm already dead, and suddenly I feel a sense of peace and freedom. |
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>>28947 |
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>>28951 |
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I don't want to top myself, but I honestly dread waking up everyday. Why can I just die peacefully in my sleep? |
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>>28953 |
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>>28954 |
>> | No. 28956
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Why does it seem to be getting harder, lads? I've been alone my whole life but this past month all I've felt is that I'm in desperate need of a hug and someone to tell me things are ok. |
>> | No. 28957
28957
>>28956 |
>> | No. 28959
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I've been out of work for almost four months now. Things are getting desperate, and I really don't want to be forced into taking a shit job for below market rate for the third time in a row, since the shittiness of the job has been a major contributing factor to the previous two not working out, and three of those in a row on the CV is effectively career over. At this rate, if I can get a bung from BoMaD, I'll completely run out of money at the end of next month, with everything maxed out. The most pernicious part of all this is that background screening questionnaires in my line of work now routinely ask whether you've asked creditors for help, so going down that route is worse than bombing out of another shit job. Any attempt to get out of a shit job after a couple of months by getting a better one is invariably going to looked upon with suspicion by anyone I apply to, who will see two short jobs, followed by another one I'm only a couple of months into, and evidently my tolerance for shit jobs isn't up to sticking at it. |
>> | No. 28969
28969
I genuinely can't remember the last time I was happy. |
>> | No. 28970
28970
Can anyone recommend cheap therapy options? Gone my whole life without but I'm falling apart so bad even I think I'm in trouble, the problem is I'm pretty broke. |
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1563777263545.jpg >>28975 |
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psychology merchant.jpg >>28977 |
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Studies have shown that self-directed CBT is just as effective as going to an actual therapist, as long as you're not too depressed to do CBT exercises consisently over the long term. I think the main benefit of seeing an actual therapist is that they make sure you're putting in the work. |
>> | No. 28985
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I did maybe ~16 weeks of CBT for extremely bad panic attacks back in '13. I was paying £50 for an hour a week back then but to be honest I was at my wit's end and would have done anything to have got myself out of the hole that I was in. |
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>> | No. 29004
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Wish I'd done parties and had a girlfriend. |
>> | No. 29012
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How do you manage pride and selfishness? |
>> | No. 29013
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giphy (3).gif >>29012 |
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1565444345526.jpg I've never really dated anyone before. I going for walks good enough? I don't particularly like cinemas or bars, nor restaurants. Walking the dog or whatever might be ultimately boring and un-exciting but at least you could keep the person talking about themselves. I don't know; ijust feel as though doing what i usually do probably isn't enough, but i don't want to pretend to be something i'm not. Maybe I could do new things with whoever - but how many times can you actually go to the zoo or a garden center (if that's even suitable)? Fuck knows, man, i'm just prepairing to make a fool of myself. |
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>> | No. 29025
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frasier vigilante.jpg I've been drinking and thinking about this chronic masturbator phenomenon, or more accurately, the phenomenon of guys who can't get laid making an entire identity around it and finding like-minded whingers. It seems to me that both the people who make an identity out of being an chronic masturbator and the journalists that write about them, make the whole problem out to be around women, fisherperson outcry about sex/relationship entitlement, etc. It seems pretty obvious to me that the core of the problem is "involuntary friendlessness" and a basic inability to connect with people in general, not just women. It doesn't strike me as a comfortable perspective for either journalists or the chronic masturbator clan themselves, considering it both diminishes their villainy but also forces them to engage in a bit more introspection and soul searching. Can't have shades of grey causing a ruckus in this black and white world. |
>> | No. 29026
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I'm paranoid to the point of derrangement and my knob isn't working properly. |
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>>29025 |
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1565179385023.jpg >>29025 |
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>>29029 |
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Just going to kms tbh. |
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>>29040 |
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No, I'm serious, my cock isn't working. What do I do? |
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>Okay, let's buy ourselves a new phone screen |
>> | No. 29052
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Perspective.jpg I'm kind of wondering whether i should bother trying anything. There's an event coming up soon that i've considered attending but now i'm just confused, unenthused for life and 'just want to sleep'. |
>> | No. 29053
29053
Does anyone else feel like a bit of an outsider? I regularly feel like I'm on the periphery of things and slightly excluded. |
>> | No. 29054
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>>29053 |
>> | No. 29055
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In this moment I can see how crazy I am, but there doesn't seem to be a thing I can do about it. |
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>>29053 |
>> | No. 29069
29069
Is sex (particularly anal) evil? I've read some of the shit you can find these days and i don't want to be encouraged or told that 'it's normal'.. I want to consider the kind of ideas against sex and decide for myself if they're reasonable. Only i don't know how to find these kind of opinions or reasons without straying toward what seem like toxic communities. |
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>>29069 |
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>>29069 |
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UBNHD.jpg >>29071 |
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>>29073 |
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I almost had normalcy, but it's gone and it's never coming back. |
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>>29076 |
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29078
Was going to apply for an apprenticeship but they want two references so lol not happening. |
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>>29078 |
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>>29078 |
>> | No. 29083
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I feel like I should make my own thread , but there’s no point in getting the same advice I won’t take again. I’m just so tired of wasting my life, but at the same time I don’t care. Not in an arrogant or smug way, but in an empty, miserable way. I haven’t got a thing to show for almost 25 years of opportunity and potential, and it makes me wish I were dead. |
>> | No. 29084
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>>29083 |
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29085
No matter how inevitable it is, and how inevitable you know it is, it's always something of a gut-shot to find out your ex has a new tinder profile. |
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>>29086 |
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I'm literally too much of a depressed failure to write a decent personal profile, but if I want to become employed and educated I need a decent personal profile. I'm halfway to losing my nut and behaving like an utter loon because of the frustration I feel at not being able to write two or three setences about why I'm not a useless dickhead. I fucking hate my life and no one can or will ever help me change, not even myself. I wish I was fucking dead. |
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>>29093 |
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I'd like to experience some different cultures but my benefit claims are somewhat based on limited ability to travel. What can i do? |
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>>29111 |
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>>29111 |
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Anxiety's got me so muddled up I'm nearly having a panic attack watching Snowpiercer; pathetic. |
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>>29085 |
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Over the past 10 years I've earned less than £50000. I feel so trapped. |
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>>29136 |
>> | No. 29154
29154
I'm confused about my sexuality. I've been with my gf for six years and we've not had sex for five of those. She initiates it every so often and I reject her and she goes off crying. I masturbate but not to porn it's a solely ritual thing. I might be asexual or gay. I told my mum today I think I might be gay but she just ignored it. I'm probably not gay to be fair. I don't know. |
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>>29154 |
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Having a big bout of quarter-life crisis. Unlike a mid-life crisis, I don't have the money to do anything about it, so I sit here closing YouTube videos where the people in them are having fun adventures or in relationships because they just makes me feel worse. They remind me of all the things I've irrevocably missed out, all the opportunities that not only have passed me by but will also never be granted to me. |
>> | No. 29179
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>>29178 |
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>>29176 |
>> | No. 29181
29181
Someone make the fucking anxiousness stop, please. |
>> | No. 29189
29189
I've been pretty tired lately. Started experiencing minor visual and audio halucinations more regularly than usual. |
>> | No. 29191
29191
Posted previously in this thread, finally had a complete break down, can see why people put a bullet in. Now I basically have a month to sort my shit out or else I have nowhere to go. Should be interesting, I always wondered where those crazy hobos came from. |
>> | No. 29204
29204
There was a time, back in 2017, when I was properly, properly happy, but I don't think that's going to come around ever again. |
>> | No. 29220
29220
I felt this great pang of insecurity earlier because someone I used to know IRL removed me from their Steam friend's list, but I thought about it for moment and I realised we haven't spoken on Steam for two or more years and I haven't seen him face-to-face since God knows. The pang ceased shortly thereafter. |
>> | No. 29231
29231
Why is it so hard for me to start doing things that i like rather than keep doing these things that i'm fucking bored of. I say to myself that i want to change my life but i'm still not fucking doing it. Am i really just fond of complaining?! |
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>>29231 |
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>>29220 |
>> | No. 29259
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I feel like I have too many hobbies/interests, and I'm constantly torn between them. I can never settle on something productive to do with my time, because it feels like a waste of time I could spend on something else; and in the end I just end up wasting the night on videogames instead. |
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>>29237 |
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>>29263 |
>> | No. 29328
29328
How are you all doing? I don't know if this is worth it or not, nobody's posted in this thread for a while, but I'm aware there's now a britfa.gs Discord server. Would anyone in /emo/ be interested in starting a separate server for support with all our problems? Suicide is still the biggest killer of men in the UK, under age 45. The majority of overall suicides are men as well. Not to say it would be a male only server, everybody needs support. These are dark months and times are hard. I'll admit this is me reaching out some too while I try to find some form of therapy, but I wouldn't wish what I'm going through on any one and it breaks my heart that there's millions out there feeling the same way and remaining isolated. If something like this already exists though please let us know. Figured it's worth a shot at least, if anyone feels the same way. |
>> | No. 29330
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>>29328 |
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29331
Everyone around me in 3/4 of my social groups is talking openly and frequently about sex and relationships, my housemate brought his lass to stay, the requisite asking from aunts and uncles at a recent family gathering about why I hadn't got a girlfriend yet - it's all REALLY grinding me down. I feel like utter fucking shit and it's everywhere I turn. Fine, I think, I'll get on Tinder. It shows me all people so unimaginably far out of my league, it's like it's taunting me. |
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>>29331 |
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My aunts used to ask me if I had a girlfriend. Then they started asking if I had a girlfriend or a boyfriend. Now they have just given up. |
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>>29335 |
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>>29335 |
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comic-onions-mkaing-you-cry-with-insults.png My romantic relationships no longer seem to last now that I'm in my 30s and I'm left pondering this because another relationship just ended. I see nothing massively wrong, so this might be an "am I normal" check, the spark simply goes and I suspect part of underlying the reason being that I never really 'feel' anything for the women I date so I never try. I can't imagine a future with them and, I know I'm probably going wrong here, they don't seem to compare to the loves I had when I was younger. There's no passion, no sense that I want to spend every waking moment with this person. |
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There was going to be more to this, but I haven’t got access to a proper computer right now and the iPhone 5 isn’t the kind of machine I feel like putting down paragraphs with. In short I’m just sick of what loneliness is doing, and has done, to me. I’m not exactly different to whom I used to be, simply lesser than. I can’t think of an SSRI or talking therapy in the whole world that could come close to going to a cafe or seeing a film with a couple of mates. I just can’t seem to get a handle on things like others can. |
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The only people I talk to are my parents and my partner. I had friends in the past but I always alienate them in the end. I try meet new people, I go to social events for my hobbies but end up sitting in silence for 10 minutes then leaving before I can even speak to anyone. Combination of autism and social anxiety makes meeting people a total nightmare. I'm so lonely. |
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>>29364 |
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There's a flaw in my character that I tend to freeze up or panic when faced with some sudden emergency or exam/interview situations. Even interpersonal conflict is difficult for me where I tend to just break into jokes. For years a line in Camus' The Plague has comforted me, that there comes in time in every day where a man is a coward but it seems like this is just the norm for me. |
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>>29364 |
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I clung on to a lot of friendships that were crap. Last year I cut them off because they were mostly losers. |
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>>29368 |
>> | No. 29376
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I wrote a post about talking about emotions but I realised it came across like an edgy Men's Rights Activist having a pop at women when that wasn't my intention so I deleted it. |
>> | No. 29416
29416
Bad news.jpg I think i think I'm better than other people. As a defense mechanism, i suppose; i've restricted the living of my life, refused meaningful social contact and don't persue many meaningful activities or hobbies. I'm essentially waiting to die. |
>> | No. 29417
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Dog-on-a-cell-phone[1].jpg >>29416 |
>> | No. 29423
29423
I've realised that over the years putting on a pair of headphones and listening to whatever has gone from, well, just that; putting on headphones and listening to whatever, to a strange ritual I use as an excuse to meander and avoid certain situations. It's evolved from listening to Shaun Keveney of a morning while I'm getting the bus to something far more unhealthy. Whether it's spending far too long deciding which podcast to listen to or thinking "well, I can't go into that shop, I still have ten minutes of Pienaar's Politics to get through". It's also gone someway to muffling my internal monologue and could well be why I've convinced myself I've gotten dumber in recent years. Considering all this has also made me aware of other unhelpful habits I've developed, but the headphones thing is the most revealing and troublesome to my mind. |
>> | No. 29425
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Better news.jpg >>29417 |
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29427
A person from my social clique at university died today I hadn't spoken to them in close to a decade, but if I happened to bump into them somewhere we'd probably chat quite happily for a long while, like no time had passed at all. |
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>>29427 |
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I feel as though, if I keep working at it nice and slowly, I'm going to come back online. |
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>>29442 |
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>>29427 |
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>>29444 |
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"What helps your mood and anxiety to get better?" |
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>>29447 |
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My unemployed partner had a job interview yesterday. When it was time for her to get up she refused to get up and proceeded to cancel the interview as she decided it wasn't the right job for her. Even though if she doesn't get a job soon we'll be effectively homeless. I got mad at her, slammed a few doors, told her I didn't give a shit anymore. Later she told me I reminded her of her abusive dad. I've become a monster. |
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>>29455 |
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29457
I had a bad day today. I had a bunch of intrusive thoughts regarding the traumatic last few months at my previous job and I'm having an anxiety attack about job security in my current position (fixed-term contract and I'm on probation for most of it). |
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m8 I'm 40 next year, I had a ten-year employment gap as a result of chronic depression and anxiety as comorbidities of late-diagnosis Autism and ADHD, but I've worked damn hard on my optimism over the last few years to find myself the opportunity I currently have. My current role has done wonders for my outlook, and I don't actually display my .gs/emo/ side in work. I'm fine as long as I'm busy and useful. |
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Can we limit the cunt-offs in /emo/, please. |
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Opinel no8.jpg This morning i dreamed about my brothers throat being cut. It was emotional - i ensured my brother i love him, but i've woke feeling worse to seemingly lesser dreams. |
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Trouble with mental health stuff and work is that you never actually do get any of the special treatment you guys are worried about. At very best it gets swept under the rug, and it's an unspoken and uncomfortable fact that you know they'd rather have rid of you for someone who isn't a mental. Call me a cynic but all the modern awareness and HR diversity shit is just a way of covering their own arses. |
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autism.jpg >>29507 |
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I think I can.jpg >>29509 |
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I have a job interview next week and I don't know if I should mention my autism. Past jobs have been pretty variable in how they dealt with it, some made reasonable adjustments, some more or less pushed me out the door. Being honest is a big risk, but at the same time I don't want it to come out two months in and have them not know how to react. It's a customer service role, and I can just about behave normally enough to do that sort of job, but I'm appalling at building rapport and that sort of skill may be necessary. |
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Not my problem I'm asking for but someone else's. A friend of mine has a history of entering into abusive relationships. She's fairly naive and vulnerable. She recently entered into a relationship with a heroin addict. Every couple of weeks he'd disappear for weeks, then come back and say he'd been on a smack bender. She'd be upset with him and have a go, which would then trigger him to disappear for another period and go back on the drugs. His friends would then attack her saying it's her fault he went back on the drugs. |
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Told my therapist it wasn't really working for me. The only reason I was really engaging was because I fancied her, which obviously isn't healthy, or fair. Still feel quite sad though. |
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150x-1.jpg why does she keep reaching out to me? |
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I can deal with isolation, that's been my natural state for most of my life. |
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Getting a bit of cabin fever with the missus working from home. AIBU? |
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I have nothing to live for. |
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I'm always looking for something to stick my indentity, whether it's the medias i absorb or the hobbies i engage in; It always follows the same pattern - find something interesting then imagine myself an advocate and gaining friends, a social life and some form legitimacy because of it. |
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I hate being like this. I can't even pick up the phone right now, but every time I sit down in front of a professional I just smile, make some cracks then tell them to bin it off after fewer than half a dozen sessions. I wish I could be me lying to authority figures 24/7. |
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How do i get over this notion that people only contact me because there's noone better available at the time? Should I get over it? I kind of feel like it'd be egotistical of me to presume i have to, but this may be in defence of the status quo. |
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Alcoholism is fucking my dad's head. |
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For the most part, I'm ok, but then it gets to 4 in the morning and I'm thinking about death again. |
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How do people wake up and feel well rested? How are people able to think clearly all the time? I think my depression's getting the better of me now, the mindfog is so intense I can't read anything I want to, I can't study anything, thank fuck I don't have a job right now I don't even know how I'd manage. Any tips on how to get rid of this at all? I can't find any decent online therapy and when I do it's insanely expensive, but at this rate I'm just going to keep declining until I can't even function by myself. And that whole cutting out alcohol and getting regular exercise is bollocks too, I've almost cut alcohol out completely and a strict physical regime is something I've always had and managed to stick to. My nutrition's very good and I stay hydrated. It all does nothing. |
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Sometimes i feel disgusted that I have a sexuality. Shame has long been a foundation, and it's really becoming a problem in my life. Sometimes i even wince at thoughts while wanking - an involuntary facial spasm as if reacting to a short circuit in my genitals (and no, not cumface). It's not right, I want to address it. How do you approach such a subject with a doctor - is it even relevant? |
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I'm really struggling. I've reached out to my LMHT, to the crisis team, to my university's support services. But it's not getting any better. I'm so paralysed by mental illness that I can't function, I can't do work, I can't do anything I used to enjoy. I don't know what else I could try. |
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Ended up going to A&E. Waited three hours to be seen by a mental health nurse who referred me back to my LMHT (who told me to go to A&E in the first place), and gave me two diazepam. Got back and tried the crisis team again, who told me to go for a walk. I think the only way I'll get help is if I stand on the edge of a bridge over the main road and threaten to jump. |
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I keep seeing things out and about or on the internet and thinking "oh I should tell grandad about that" and then remember he died three weeks ago. I always academically understood the idea that you don't really realise how big a part someone is of your life until they're not there anymore, but fucking hell I really get it now. |
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Bit jealous of you lads. My grandad died when I was 6. Smoked like a chimney all his life and got lung cancer, predictably. Never had the strongest bond with my dad either, never really went out for a drink with him or anything because I wasn't into the footy or anything, so there wasn't much to talk about. |
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Read 'the game' yesterday and it left me with a bitter loathing for humanity. |
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Well, 37 this year lads. It seems like the blink of an eye since I was 27, 24. Christ. |
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Skol-Super-24x-500ml-Cans.jpg >>29826 |
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I'm getting very weary of how whenever you post anything online, the only responses you ever get are snarky smartarse pedants trying to subtly one-up you, even when they're agreeing, or if your original comment was meant positively. Everything always gets taken the wrong way or turned into a debate. I just want a proper conversation. |
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All I can do is get high and the only time I feel someway normal is on low doses of LSD. Productivity is shot, I just want to sit and do nothing, to just have time to process everything happening but even days of that don't seem to be enough. I get right back into the real world and I feel terrible, everything's so shit. I know I should pack it in as I'm probably just overdoing the drugs but I honestly can't take being sober at this point. When the weather clears up I'm going to the moors to do a whack load of shrooms and hoping that sorts me out one way or another. |
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Each time i come here to talk about whatever's on my mind, I think fuck it and just load up a videogame or youtube. |
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I've been feeling miserable since Friday when I ordered a Chinese takeaway of steamed pork buns, Tom Yum soup and curry samosas; all delicious in their own right but they have no business being combined like that. Anyway, a little while ago I read something that made me horny and I don't like being sad and horny, it's just awful. |
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Screenshot_2020-07-21 Cedar Walton Clifford Jordan.jpg People made fun of me when I was a teenager because I held my tongue between my lips when I was drumming so I got embarrassed and stopped. But look at this bloke he doesn't care how he looks. I'm buying an electric drum kit. Fuck it, I don't care if I don't have the room, the spare cash or the physical ability, I'm learning to drum again. |
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Open question: How often do you lads see your mates? How many mates would you say you honestly have, excluding the various "acquaintances"? Under normal circumstances I mean, not global pandemic times. |
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I have too many people to keep track of so I don't and that seems to be fine. I'll see a few people a month or so as they come and go from the country or are more or less busy. |
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I feel like I might have made this exact post three years ago, but I really need to stop fancying, and making them fancy me, women who live on the other side of the Earth. Even a hundred-and-fifty mile radius would be a better option. Actually a lot of that is sea, but I'm sure there are a few hotties sailing the oceans. |
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I'm pretty sad that i lost all of my Alan Watts audio files. I know he was a drunk and had issues with his ego, but hell i listened to them almost religiously for hours on end. The sound of his voice has become a kind of guiding, grounding sound that reaches into my heart ('lol', right?), making me feel both depressed and accepted at once. It's really nice in that sad sort of way. I don't know, i'm just feeling something right now I guess. |
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Got drunk at home and decided to go to a pub. What a great recipe for turning your feelings of alienation up to 11. |
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There's no point going to the pub on your own if you can't get coked up and chat shit to strangers. It's no different to drinking alone without that, just noisier. |
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Shite, think I've wasted my life. |
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I wish I could say the pandemic has allowed me to buoy my savings up a bit but in reality it's meant I've ordered a lot of shit I arguably didn't need and come out in roughly the same position as before. Still, I'm considering that a net positive, since the money is still going into my savings every month, so at least I haven't actively damaged my finances buying stuff. |
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I don't think I'm cut out for work. I've had probably about 10 jobs over the last decade, and the only ones I've managed to do for any length of time have been ones where either the management has been so slack there's no real pressure, or ones where there are so many other people doing my job that I can blend into the background. I'm not a bad worker necessarily, I'm efficient and don't toss it off, but I crumble under even minor pressure and don't handle responsibility and accountability very well. Again, not that I do a bad job, but I overthink everything and feel that if I'm not performing at my peak or I feel I'm not adding value to the business, I get very anxious and want to leave. |
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I don't mean to try to out Emo /emo/, but lately I've been laughing but not exactly feeling it. |
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Yet another job turning me down for not being extroverted enough. It's not like I'm applying to be a red coat, just retail work, but my autism is proving to be a real issue. |
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This place doesn't really feel like home, anymore. |
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I don't know when it started happening, but I have a high discomfort from social confrontation to the point it causes me distress and self-loathing afterwards. |
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File
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>Porn is not causing him to be disconnected from women, he is already disconnected from them, and the only person that will have him is online. He's not retreating into porn because real women don't measure up, he's retreating into it because he doesn't measure up. He's not porn material. He doesn't expect or want that women will naturally act like porn stars in bed, he expects that he will be able to turn them into porn stars in bed, with his massive dong packing her into a creaming pliancy. It is his failure to be able to do this that drives him back to porn. |
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My dick doesn't work, I've lost the sensation on the top of my right foot and my face feels funny; dying, at last. |
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I am dogged by the feeling that society is actually crumbling, and we're heading into a very dark time of upheaval and strife. The type of thing people in post-war Germany had to live through, ex-Soviet countries, that kind of situation. The sort of thing people just take for granted won't happen here because we have our nice big tellies and fancy cars on PCPs, only it's happening very gradually, so nobody notices. It genuinely distresses me sometimes. |
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Maybe it is the prepper in me but I'd trade lockdown for full society collapse. At the very least it wouldn't be boring. |
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Oh, bother, I think I've rather wasted my life. Or ruined it. I'm in two minds about which. |
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Minor anxiety I have for no reason: |
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Minor angst: argued with my girlfriend about the temperature of the bedroom, but of course it wasn't really about the temperature of the bedroom. |
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I'm in a social group with a bunch of petty childish people. I've realised that outside of events where I'm actually there I likely barely exist to these people. |
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I'm sat on .gs on the eve of my birthday with absolutely nothing to do and no-one to talk to. All my mates my age now have responsibilities such as kids and partners and all that and the people I know younger than me can't do anything because of the whole 'rona situation. I can't even get blackout drunk and make a whole load of noise by myself because I live with the 'rents. Fucking hell, it's so grim. |
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Suffering from a pretty severe case of anhedonia right now. Had a long week and just want to relax and recharge but all I've done is sit and scroll reddit. Sometimes I just can't be arsed with anything. |
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I am struggling to come to terms with the fact I used to be a very unpleasant person. Very spiteful, talked shit about people behind their back, engaged in gossip. I was not alone in this - my friendship group at the time all behaved like this. But in my later years I've tried to turn a new leaf, not be a judgmental prick. But I feel like I've burned a lot of bridges in my social circle. How do I show people I've changed for the better? |
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I've seen no less than three of my social media acquantances retweet a tweet saying "do you consider yourself attractive", and them replying with "no" or some variation thereof recently. This in spite of them being attractive - and they know it, to a storm of replies saying "nooo! you're attractive!". If someone who was genuinely ugly/unattractive retwatted it, it'd just be awkward and a bit sad, so all this exists solely to do is boost the egos of people who know they are already attractive. |
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Oof, lads, be careful which SD cards you find in a draw while digging around for something else, because they might just have audio recordings of the only woman you've ever properly loved on them |
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How do you talk about taboo sexual topics witout offending people. |
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If you are afraid of sexuality, you could try talking to a whore. The have a lot of practical experience, are open minded, and I am sure will happily talk with you on any subject so long as you pay them. |
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I once heard someone say that "if you win the morning, you win the day", and I've noticed that when I start my day off without an internet connection, the entire day turns out to be productive and awesome, and I go to bed filled with positive vibes that create a cascade effect for the next day. If, on the other hand, I have an internet connection, I spend much of the day chasing ephemera, in a state of mindless consumption looking for the next titilating youtube video, imageboard thread, ebay deal, reply to my own imageboard posts, etc. |
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Sometimes my job requires some pretty repetitive, mindless work. I don't mind it on its own, sometimes I even enjoy the prospect of spending a couple of hours doing something that requires absolutely zero mental energy. |
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159863166698.jpg I'm 28 years old, virgin, never held a job. Not sure what to do or what to aim for. |
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I'm not trying to piggy back off another virgin's pity, but when you're an older virgin it's not so much that "oh know, I've never cummed inside another person", it's more that there's a lot of interpersonal and social experiences that go along with that that also haven't happened. |
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I'm not sure why, but I just became faintly depressed about backwards time travel being impossible. I can be pretty certain of this because if it were possible human beings would have made such a complete mess of things reality would have broken down in ways that would be halfway between the Fyre Festival and a demonic invasion from another dimension. I think about massive, looming or already upon us problems like fossil fuels, enviromental damage, world hunger and the pandemic, and I'm pretty confident time travel capable humans lay low all of human history with no hessitation or second thoughts. Maybe this is a very 2020 opinion and we'll have TNG'd up in a few hundred years. |
>> | No. 30132
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Don't you feel just a bit sad after spending the day with people, only to find yourself back home alone? I guess it's quite normal, really, i just feel as though something is wrong. |
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thankgodit'sover.png I would like to experience an emotion other than humilation for just five fucking minutes. |
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159270c70273d0a3c9284313b7bb3fb0.jpg >>30138 |
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I missed the train to see my dad, my only mate doesn't like me anymore and I can never find trousers that I like. |
>> | No. 30236
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By my own standards I've reached the absolute rock bottom of my life in terms of my aspirations and self respect; unemployed, live alone, no goals or future plans. |
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I feel as though i have no personal rolemodel, and doubly bad for feeling sorry for myself because plenty of people are going through the same shit or worse and use it as fuel for success. |
>> | No. 30249
30249
There's a small community around [interest] on twitch and it's making me sad. There are lots of kids and teenagers of varying ability doing it and that's fine, I don't know how serious they are about it but they're having fun. |
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7420484a7e6bccaf57eed32e15787a67.jpg >>30261 |
>> | No. 30263
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I really am a shell these days, a shade. I'm so empty I daren't go out in the wind lest I blow away. This occurs to me sometimes and the realisation is almost unbearable, so I just bury it under nonsense and move on. Decades more of this non-existence, what's the point? |
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It took me six hours to get into the shower today, what's the point? What, am I going have a "career" am I? Or "mates"? I'm just lazy non-person. |
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Sorry about this lads, it’s going to be a rambling one. |
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I just can't seem to get a job this year. I'm in tech, so it's supposed to be easy. I get a lot of interviews, but they rarely go anywhere. Companies often expect me to spend hours working on a project for them, or worse, to spend hours on a zoom call working on a project for them while some of their people watch and silently judge. Feedback is often nonexistent or worthless, sometimes it just adds to the frustration "Technically good, but you didn't answer our HR 'tell us about a time when you...' well enough" they actually told me to memorise some canned stories, which is admitting to the artificiality of the process, it blows my fucking mind. |
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As someone who works for local government. I can confirm that the majority of the staff can barely use their work computers. So I imagine our IT department must have been close to completely breaking down having to remotely support certain individuals when we went into lockdown. |
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Well, I've fucked it. Haven't bought any gifts, haven't even rang anyone to make any plans. I am completely out of it. I can barely intake liquids, I feel like I'm shutting down. |
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Why do women find it so hard to just be honest? I'm hardly new to the vicious world of dating, it's far from my first rodeo and I know all the pitfalls and caveats etc. But at the same time I find it increasingly difficult not to become embittered by the absolute fucking incapability of any woman I have ever spoken to to give you so much as "I'm sorry love, I don't think you're my type after all" rather than just randomly ghosting you one day. |
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I wish I could make friends and focus on tasks, but sadly I'm weird and stupid. |
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images-2.jpg >>30331 |
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I was thinking earlier "what should I do before having a shower?" but I realised that I've got nothing to do before getting a shower, so the tug of war in my brain about being clean is literally all I've got and it's still a struggle. Pathetic. |
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I'm such an embarrassing, weird, sad, pathetic little "man" that the world would truly be no worse - nay, better if I had never existed. |
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original-4969477-1.jpg Cognitive behavioural therapists are all "don't be sad, just think about rainbows, dude!" Meanwhile my brain's doing fucking doughnuts in muck spreader the moment anything puts me off-balance. |
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the economist too good to live.png >>30385 |
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>>30385 >>30386 |
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Gosh, maybe, to quote Mega64's Neon Genesis Evangelion In Five Minutes "maybe if I decide not to be a little bitch, I don't have to be". |
>> | No. 30394
30394
Windy.com and various other sites and utilities - each of which i could actually use productively - have misteriously broke after I applies the reccomended changes from https://www.privacytools.io/browsers/#addons |
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I hate being a pathetic lonely failure, it's rubbish. |
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I hate everything, find joy in nothing and I'm correct to do so. |
>> | No. 30404
30404
I enjoy solitude too much. For as long as I can remember I've preferred being alone, keeping to short sentences whenever anybody makes an effort to be my friend. Now I'm in my late 20s and have nothing going on in my life except work. Pre-pandemic I'd go to the cinema but I was kind of stuck on ideas on what else to do by myself besides work. Now the cinemas are shut so I've got nothing else going on. Even video games don't cut it anymore. |
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I was off sick with depression most of January, triggering work to invite me to a performance review. The anxiety I'm feeling because of that, combined with worsening of depression and the fuckery of changing medications, has made me get signed off for the rest of February. I feel like I'm going to lose my job, and if I do my life will be over. |
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30428
Thanks to lockdowns I haven't met a person I feel physically attracted to in months. It has created a weird frustration within me. |
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>> | No. 30433
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proxy-image.jpg I started reading Frankie Boyle's "new" book this morning and got to the part on the fifth page of the introduction where he said "Perhaps the prospect of meeting your end in an epidemic is different when you have comprehensively fucked your own life up; part of me thinks that if I die now, I can call this thing a draw." and never even made it to chapter one because I had to go back to bed and waste away another Sunday in the dozy comfort that out there is at least one other cunt who understands who utterly fucking miserable I am. |
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>> | No. 30451
30451
Im 33 and a lad from my year in school died over the weekend. I haven't heard the cause yet, but if it was by his own hand that'd make him the second lad from my year in school to do so in a six month period. Pretty bleak. |
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>>30436 |
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30465
Just no desire to do even the most basic things anymore, I feel constantly bereft. |
>> | No. 30466
30466
The only way out is revolution or war. So the only question left is, which side are you on? |
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30473
I recognise that this is just a load of buts and the answer is simply to go sit outside and get used to it, but i'm really anxious about going out at the moment because the weather is nice there are a lot of attractive people about wearing pretty clothes. |
>> | No. 30474
30474
Do you ever come across people that are so sweet and kindhearted that it makes you feel bad? As in they're just so absolutely unprotected by their very core being from all the horrible shite in the world that it pains you that they have to experience it anyway? |
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30478
>>30474 |
>> | No. 30479
30479
I've been pretty emotionally vulnerable lately, I can't decide if this is me losing my mind from isolation or if this is me healing enough that I can feel my emotional pain again. |
>> | No. 30495
30495
Online dating is bad. I want to delete my accounts, but the coming opening of things and lack of any other options is holding me back. Hinge, which was my favourite, now puts the people it thinks I'm best matched with and puts them in a separate queue in which I'd have to pay a could of quid to message them, it's a cruel thing to do, really. |
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>>30479 |
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>> | No. 30498
30498
attention.jpg I recently saw ThatGirl-I-Like™ having a photo taken of herself posing with a park statue. The thought that she might be creating a dating profile picture hurt, but even more was the realisation that if I created one too - and by some chance our accounts met - I would feel such shame and embarassment to have even put myself before her. |
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30503
Almost experienced hope, but it was... NO! I DID A TYPO! FUCK OFF BRAIN! I'm still doomed, but I'm not going to try because I misspelt the name of a writer who's been dead for four-hundred years. |
>> | No. 30508
30508
I am never going to have sex. |
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30533
I love my girlfriend but don't find her physically attractive at all. I did initially, but I just went off her completely. |
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30536
You guys don't get it. I'm not going to ever have sex because my penis doesn't work. |
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30546
I feel like being on the autism spectrum, or having a personality divergent enough for someone to put me there at least, is some sort of curse. I need to luck in to a decent job because the majority of entry level stuff is customer or speed focused, both of which are my terminal weakpoints. |
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30555
When is it too late to start over? Have I fucked it lads? |
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30559
I really can't get over not having a working cock. I think I might kill myself. |
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>>30559 |
>> | No. 30637
30637
I live in the most expensive city in England and my friend found a houseshare becoming available which a bunch of us had arranged to move into next month. Then I found out last month that the owner of the house I am in currently wants us out of the one I am in now so it all was looking pretty cushty. |
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30642
Half-bald, complete failure, no mates, virgin, poor, there is legitimately no reason to carry on. Everything is getting worse and my baseline was miserably low to start with. |
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This is so bizarrely minor on the scale of things but probably more existential dread than most of this thread. |
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30666
Supposed to be dating and chatting with birds on Tinder and that, knocking on a bit at 30 and only ever had one girlfriend during the years I've spent breathing but whenever I boot up the app, this enormous wave of apathy overwhelms me. I've had a few matches but none of them have ever gone anywhere. |
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Everyone around me seems to be living a more interesting and fulfilling life than me. This isn't social media envy - this is talking to people. |
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30701
Last night I saw a video of a guy being suplexed in a street fight. At first he just looked like he was in that locked up position after a KO, then he started shaking, and then slowly his face went from blank to looking like he was trying to scream and he was clenching his fists and shaking in silence. |
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Goose.jpg >>/£$€¥/8631 had me thinking about different types of capital, namely; social, cultural and economic. |
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I can't believe what an unsalvagable mess it all is. |
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There was a confrontation at my bus stop the other day, got quite heated, and I didn't interfere. Of the 10-15 people at the bus stop, only one guy interfered. I know you shouldn't be a hero, but I feel bad for just standing and watching. If I was in the position of the man being attacked I'd like to think people would step in to help me. |
>> | No. 30714
30714
I don't seem to be willing or able to leave my house anymore. |
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30718
I went on a date the other night, and it seemed to go really well. She invited me back to hers, we kissed, and she seemed keen to meet again, even suggesting we do something this weekend. |
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I'm studying Computer Science and I am absolutely fucking hopeless at programming. |
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CS grad.png >>30722 |
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Just had a fight with my lass within a week of moving in together (we've been together 6 years and have lived together before, but this is the first time since lockdown), because she expects me to do emotional labour when I'm at work. She just comes in off a hard phone call, I've just been on the phone about going 200% over my time budget for a job, and I'm now working on sorting that out and making sure the work is actually right and all, and she pipes up so I just say "Sorry, I'm stressed, I need to work", and then she starts crying. That was it, I wasn't shouting, it was monotone, I was reading spreadsheets and then I hear a sniffle. |
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Not sure why the other lads are being so dismissive of this OP, it would drive me loopy. |
>> | No. 30759
30759
All she wanted you to do was go "Yeah, awww, that's awful....mm hmmm....yeah you should.....that's sad.......OK, yeah..............mmm, that's right........" |
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>>30759 |
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Sounds like this is a managing expectations problem. Your girlfriend has to understand you are not their shrink and aren't available 100% of the time. And you need to accept you can't fix every single problem and when your girlfriend is upset like this it isn't directly under your control or fault. Life can't be perfect all the time. This problem in particular though if it hasn't fixed itself by tomorrow morning I will be amazed. |
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>>30722 |
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A lass from Tinder ghosted me and it sent me into a bit of a dread spiral. I'm practically 30 and a lot of the building blocks of a respectable life just aren't there. |
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I simultaniously really miss my dad and can't pluck up the courage to go and visit him. He's not dying, he wasn't abusive, we don't hate each other, I just feel like a fuck up and like our relationship is kind of... I don't even know, I just wanted to share these thoughts and feelings that zip around in my head every couple of days. |
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psych-soc-link.jpg I don't know if this is helpful but "I" have an invite to the alpha of something called Lua which is apparently a dating app for uhm, "conscious" people. Hippy-dippy folk who're into crystals, meditation, incense and class-A psychedelics. I'm guessing it's mostly people in London. Anyway if any of you lads who're into dating apps wants to try it, the invitation link's in the image. The app's home page is https://www.lua.earth/ |
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Ralph Pootawn.png >>30498 |
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>>30789 |
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Chihuahua orr muffin.jpg >>30790 |
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30809
Got 3rd month probation review today, told my partner, asked if it'd be alright to set alarm for half 8 instead of 8, she said she had to move the car before free parking finished, so fair. |
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30818
tldr we probably need relationship counselling since we can't seem to solve these issues by communicating, thanks for talking me through the stress lads. |
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30820
I'm pathologically attracted to massive arses. I can only get hard to massive arses. I don't have sex with my girlfriend because she has no arse. I want to fuck massive arsed women, but I am trapped in an arseless relationship. |
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Dammit, I'm mildly depressed and suffering a complete lack of motivation. |
>> | No. 30872
30872
Do you ever feel like there's some cosmic force that just prevents you from being allowed to have nice things? |
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>>30872 |
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Workspaceboundarieslad, got my first round of relationship counselling coming up at 5pm, really can't be fucked as I'm finally getting some work done and I'm quite hungover, but probably best to get it started. Need to avoid throwing up on the phone. |
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30875
Reporting back, it was quite interesting but immediately got into an argument once it was over about something that happened years ago, which really hurt me at the time which I've gotten over - I moved in with her, she guaranteed she'd been told she could defer her MA to the next year, and would move out and go travelling in January, giving me 6 months with her and 6 months alone, enough time to save up for the extra rent for living on my own. She then found out she couldn't, and moved out in late September, leaving me alone in the house paying rent for 9 months, without any of the time I'd been banking on to get my finances in order. I was upset at the time because I couldn't tell her not to go for her dream as such, but every time rent was due I'd get anxious and depressed. |
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>>30875 |
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How long does it take to become comfortable with a partner's family? I've been seeing my partner for 6 years, and see her family once a month, and still get incredibly anxious if I have to spend time with them. I think this is why I always thought about dating an orphan, no parents to disappoint. |
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E7KDwROXoAIihTN.jpg I keep remembering when I had a life, smiling at the fond memories and then being hit with what feels like an unyielding torrent of misery at how far I've fallen. I hope a massive spike smashes through my window and carries on through my stupid fucking head while I sleep. |
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>>30909 |
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Ever since it became a sort of necessary engagement thing for YouTubers to reply in their comments section, I've found it irresistible to troll them. I don't know why, I just can't stop myself baiting, because I'm some anonymous arsehole behind a screen name and they always bite and get really defensive, which then makes me feel weirdly vindicated. |
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I'm vaguely annoyed about this female friend with a history of depression who's misinterpreted my attempts to check up on her after her breakups as me sniffing around trying to get with her. It's not something I have any interest in whatsoever but how do you tell someone you don't find them at all attractive without hurting their feelings? |
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I just punched in our window. I feel like a massive cunt. Just come back from drinks with the parents in law, had a miscommunication with partner result in a drunk argument. We've been doing really well in counselling for the last couple months and arguments have dropped as has their intensity, but just being drunk for this one blew it way out. I smashed a window because she locked me out of the house when we were arguing and for some reason I thought I'd bang on the window instead of banging on the door. It was a pointless series of drunk escalations. She knows I'm sorry as by now I've apologised a few times, and she's apologised for locking me out. Just a stupid drunk argument, but now there's blood everywhere and the neighbours know I'm a cunt and we've wasted what could have been a nice night. I respond like a fucking psycho if I am locked out of my home. I get the feeling that the consistency of such a reaction isn't justified despite the rarity of its occurrence. |
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I have a big promotion (with much more work) and enough saved to move to a regional office so I can buy a home. It's all moving very fast, the regional office isn't based somewhere I'd ever dream of living and while I'll rent for the first 6 months it's a scary thought to end up trapped in suburbia and married to my job. If I turn around and realise I hate my new life, job or I'm just incompetent then this will be a very painful mistake. The problem as well is I'll be moving out of the city on my own with the lass I'm seeing now unable to do her job elsewhere - not how most people do it I suspect. |
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Help me all I can do is type. |
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I went on a date, quite promising, she talked about 'next time', she texted me to tell me she had a nice time, I ask if she got home okay, then she seems to have ghosted me. |
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Personally I think self-pity is top of the fanny repellant list, but desperation is a close secnond. |
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Why do you lot bother with relationships? It's a stupid fucking game. |
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Tired account.png I've had no interest in seeing my people lately - it's always the same shit with no news to share. I know what they say, i know what they're about and it's boring. Loathesome, even - the thought of finding new depths to these people is currently a chore. |
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>>30959 |
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God,. A pathetic little weasel, a pitiful excuse for a person who should really remove.himself from the planet but I'm too much of a coward to do even that. |
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I keep getting infatuated with women. I have a girlfriend, have done for 6 years, never strayed etc. But I encounter women in my life and all I can think about is fucking them. I have dreams about it, I go to bed thinking about it. I want to sow my wild oats but I simply can't. |
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My lass is a wonderful person, an asset to the world and to all her associates, takes an interest in everything I do, and satisfies all of my urges in bed. But she's also got severe ADHD bordering on dementia, and is frankly a shit communicator if she's stressed. |
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I can’t actually believe how fucked my life is. It just won’t land, the realisation instead presses up against my shattered ego. I can feel the decline in myself; physically, intellectually and emotionally I’m totally shot through. I was always a waste of skin, but even those parts of myself I liked have been flayed off as I went about my brief fits of effort. Now it’s all gone, the drive, the help, the hope, both within and without. If I could only keep the up this level of lucidity during the day I might do the proper thing and end it. But I won’t, that wretch will be back tomorrow and the day after and on and on, until the clock’s run down, most likely, because I’m as weak as it. |
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women know your limits.png >>30981 |
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10 years back a girl broke my heart by running off with a scumbag, or more exactly I found out. It caused the usual trauma where you give everything you have with a girl only for her to throw it in your face - there's an irrational insecurity that I'm not good enough for love despite it really being a story of a stupid cunt and a naïve idiot. She bubbles into my dreams now and again, only when I'm not seeing anyone. |
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30991
Everything was going so well a few months ago. A decent job, I was just about coming out of a years long battle with mental illness, therapists suggested we taper off our sessions due to my improvement. But since then I lost my job, got a new job in which I'm majorly underemployed, the voices have returned and my mood is lower than ever, and I'm fed up with every relationship I have in my life. I don't have the means to up sticks and start again, I am forever stuck in this rut until I inevitably jump off a building. |
>> | No. 30998
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I don't know if this is the right place for it, but I don't think it warrants its own thread. |
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Sometimes, I just feel like I've become totally disconnected. |
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Dog eyes.jpg You know that Noam Chomsky thing about infintite posibilities within a set boundary? Well I feel that way about identity and my experience of existance in general - from the clothes we wear, the careers we choose and even the principles we live by. They seem to be different flavours of the same experience. Is one better than the other, or are we railroaded on some storyline mission with stealth, force and magic options that take us to the exact same destination? |
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Christ, I'm so lonely. |
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I've been a deep depression for many months that I will never fuck anyone as hot as the women in my porn. It's not like I want an unrealistic thing, most of my porn watching habits involve mature BBWs, but my girlfriend will never be able to compare. Also sometimes I think I'm gay because I have periods I can only get off to gay porn, but when I tried coming out to my mum she looked so disappointed so I said it was a bout of mental illness. |
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I hate these moments of lucidity. There is nothing quite so unpleasant in all my life, I would give anything to function as normally as others do. |
>> | No. 31098
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Arguments with partner again, it's always fucking bullshit. A few weeks ago I came back home after work on Friday to find 10 years of personal documents loosely arranged, covering the entire floor. Also all my books moved and reorganised. She'd taken it on herself to sort all my personal docs and books (I've got about 80% of the books in the house) and spent 4 hours doing so, and I flipped out because to me it felt like someone tearing up all my comforts and she doesn't know how I organise things, and didn't ask. |
>> | No. 31104
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Spoke to a GP, he more or less made out that I wanted antidepressants as a crutch and told me to wash my penis. I don't even want antidepressants, they're shit; I want a fucking brain scan to figure out where this black hole is eminating from, you fat, Welsh, tosser. |
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I don't know how to stop drinking too much. I am so depressed when I haven't had anything. Life is just a long nightmare. I need my drink, but I will die early. I am trying to weigh it up. I don't know how I am not homeless and begging on the streets. |
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Yet another one where I thought I had a promising match but she turned out to have the brainworms. |
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The fuck is the point of antidepressants. Tried them for the first time in my life, it's been a month, less mood dips and anxiety but the trade off is I'm absolutely knackered all of the time and my sleep's gone to shit. I woke up at 23:00 today after spending 17 hours in bed. At least before I could actually have days where I achieved things, now I can't even focus and I've lost a month. |
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I think SAD is kicking in. Not for me, everyone else seems to have taken a melancholy turn with the weather. |
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>>31122 |
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There's a weird bird at work who's married and knows I have a girlfriend, but she frequently inserts the topic of sex into the conversations we have. Not directly, but mentioning particular scenes from films, laughing at the 'BJ' column on Excel, talking about weird sexual culture from Japan. |
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Do you ever feel like your emotions tend to come secondary? Even if you're telling your girlfriend that you're feeling down it almost always ends up with you consoling her and not addressing what's actually on your mind? |
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I'm not real. |
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I am in my 30s, and I broke up with my long-term girlfriend of... one year. I can't seem to have relationships lasting more than an average of 6 months. I don't mean this in a bad way, I am perfectly okay with it. Whenever something about them gets on my tits, I leave, and I don't even feel any sort of sadness or longing for the relationship. I actually get happy and think good riddance, and start anew. |
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>>31152 Can you give examples of the reasons your partners get on your tits enough to end a relationship? |
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>>31121 |
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Man, I just love having a different GP for each appointment, retelling them everything all over again and then getting differing advice with no follow up on what was discussed last month. |
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My mate used some of that stuff to quit smoking, and it also forced him to quit drinking coffee, presumably because, without realising, he was also addicted to that. |
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Is there a way to stop dreams? I keep dreaming things then they come true several days/weeks later and it's giving me such anxiety because when I am in the future predicted by the dream I have to do something else to change the timeline and it scares me so much. |
>> | No. 31211
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Being a fat cunt is an addiction like any other, and I'm scared to ask for happy pills since most of them also make you fat. Reckon the buponion would be good for that? |
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31212
Well, spoke to a psych today. He was happy to prescribe my buproprion. It's a low dose to begin. Bit nervous to start it, I had horrible side effects starting the citalopram and sertraline. I was monged out for weeks. What can I expect with buprorion? Apparently not much. |
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I went on a date with a woman. She told me she gets so many matches on [app] that it's like a job, then she downed her drink, made an excuse, and left. The whole date lasted maybe 45 minutes. I was going to message her to ask if I don't look like my pictures or something, but she has already unmatched. |
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I need an morality check: I've started dating a woman because I was using a Hinge for validation after getting dumped following two dates with another woman that I got silly for. |
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Visiting family for the weekend. They all treat me like I'm a fucking joke. My job, my weight, my mental health, my hobbies, even the way I walk, I can't do anything right in their eyes. |
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I've been seeing someone for the past 2 months. Last night I broke it off with them. While I deeply cared for them and did love them, something just didn't fit right and I didn't want to lead them on. |
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I need to go back into hibernation-tier depression, because I'm trying to do anything and I'm just getting irrationally angry again all the time. Is this improvement? Just feels like orbiting the same black hole to me. |
>> | No. 31240
31240
So, I think I'm going to have to leave my partner, she's just not putting the effort in and I'm fed up of it. I've given her enough chances. I'm pretty gutted about it, and it'll be a proper ache in the balls to have to move out on my own again, but I can't keep making mental gymnastics to excuse her for it any more, she's just taking me for a mug to be honest. |
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Is it the same poster whose response to any women related troubles is to "bend her over and give her a good seeing to"? I feel like I've seen that phrase multiple times over the last few months on /emo/. |
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I'm so sick of playing the game of humouring the gender fluid bollocks, it seems like it is just an excuse for them to be endlessly narcissistic and whiney about thing that aren't actually problems and aren't actually solvable, and like a gotcha game to accuse people of hate crimes who does anything but wholly indulge it. We need to do away with this absurd concept that their faith and belief trumps objective reality,we always knew people's self images were deluded but now because they are hipsters instead of that bloke down the pub who talks big after a pint we have to believe them. In another generation we will just need to invent another word that means man and women so people can understand what the fuck you are taking about when you describe them anyway, can't we just cut it off now. I am tired. |
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Anyway this isn't the place to discuss what the policy on /emo/ should or shouldn't be. Please keep further argument about it on /shed/. |
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Ahhh, fucking hell. Just trying to make sense of it all, to be honest lads. |
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If those cliffs were any closer, with the breakthroughs I'm making, I might well not see dawn as I no longer wish to. |
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Well I think I've fucked it lads. I posted a bit ago about how I thought me and the missus are heading for a break up, I've been trying to get my head clear and figure out the best way to proceed but it looks like my hand has been forced. Foolishly, I left a browser window open while I went out today and she's seen a post I made elsewhere where I vented out my thoughts on the matter. So she's gone to stay with her family and asked me to disappear. |
>> | No. 31288
31288
I spend all day worrying about how fast my life is going, how little time you have, especially in your physical peak, which I am now leaving, rather than actually living my life. |
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31291
Do you not worry about virtually running into your friends or family, even familiar strangers, on dating websites? The thought terrifies me - that they could monitoring my profile and laugh at my misguided attempts to form relationships. It'd be humiliating. |
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I think I'm literally going to be cucked by the housing market into staying with this failing, toxic abuse cycle of a relationship. There's simply nowhere affordable for me to move to. Everything is twice the price it was before, and even despite having two payrises over the last year and a half, I'd be paying just about half my wage for a crummy studio flat in fucking Huddersfield or something. How in the world has it become this dire? |
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EMzxE5DXUAA5_5G.jpg >>31297 |
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Around ten years ago, when everything was obviously still a bit scandalous but less mad than it is now, I saw something in the news which said most people spend around 30% of their income on rent, and this was an outrage. I was probably around the 45% mark at the time and felt pretty proud of how I was surviving and my savings would one day make me rich. Now, I am better off, and I have 40 grand in the bank and still can't buy a house. I'm honestly considering just buying a slum house at an auction for 20 grand(ish), doing it up with my remaining money, and selling it on for a profit, even though I am firmly of the opinion that the people who do this are part of the problem and must be stopped. Any such slum house would be at least 50 miles from where I live, and I don't have a car, and this is entirely due to the fucking pricks who buy all the houses. |
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Why do I always find myself so intertwined with manipulative, selfish people who think they can take me for a mug? Why does this cycle keep repeating? |
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I don't mean to sound needy, but when I show more interest in people's new shoes than they do in really important things that happen to me, I start to feel really quite bad about myself. |
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Discerning between being alone vs being lonely has always been interesting. I've always been okay with being alone, but I often feel like the feeling of being lonely is a superimposition that's slathered on my psyche when I spend too much time on imageboards (with everyone whining about their mundane social problems) or when I consume too much media (which is centered around the problems of our social species). It's as if gaining access to the internet suddenly bombarded me with the problems of regular people and brainwashed me into taking on the melodrama of their minds as my own, simply because it seemed like having these sorts of problems seemed Normal and Human™. The internet made it far easier to spread the virus of discontentment because the melodrama became interactive. |
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I know it's a bit cliché, but there's a reoccurring trend in my life is that whenever I genuinely feel something for a woman she won't feel the same way and the opposite is usually true of myself when a woman feels something for me. I'm seeing a normatively attractive woman moment (blonde, skinny, drinks prosecco with her girlfriends, has a financially successful career) but I feel nothing for her and instead still think about the punky art girl who felt nothing for me a few months back. |
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Every now and again I run into someone on the internet who's clearly so bitter and hateful that it just honestly really depresses me. |
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ZBE8.png >>31343 |
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I can't get a second date lads. I'm trapped in shit date groundhog day. |
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Now over 120kg. I'm going to slowly eat myself to death, complaining about it along the weigh, but never enough to stop shoving my pathetic fat cakehole with shit. |
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Great, more CBT with an overly polite and well-meaning lady. I'm sure this time it'll be different. |
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I drunkenly sent a girl, who’s in a relationship, flirty and sexual messages over an extended period of time. |
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I know this sounds very pathetic, but I'm very frightened and I wish I didn't have to be so alone with it. A therapist would do, but I'd rather have, you know, a basic friendship group or something like that. |
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crisis guide.png I picked this up today, which I thought was quite useful. |
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million ways to.jpg For the past 2 to 3 weeks my routine has been to turn on the computer shortly after waking, check what's going on in the community (3 new posts on britfa.gs), then roll into time wasting mode on 9gag. Eat and tea intermittently, maybe play a game for an hour, then wank and bed. |
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Does anyone else find when there's something getting you down, like work being stressful or something, that's when your girlfriend decides to be a right bitch and pour fuel on the fire? |
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It's the longest night, lads. |
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DM1688.jpg >>31373 |
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Thank you for being so nice by the way. |
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I basically told myself I'd spend my 20s trying loads of different jobs so I knew what kind of thing I'd like. It seemed sensible but actually I've just thrown away loads of potential progression by nobbing about to 30 and I seem to just about tolerate any type of job - sad really, my passion was really just increasing my savings and not being at work after all. |
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It's probably really narcissistic and conceited of me, but I've struggled to put my finger on this for a while about my relationship, and I think I've sort of sussed it out. |
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So, like, is this it? Christmas is done, sat back at the computer. A few new messages on britfa.gs. What the fuck do I do now? |
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This is a generic New Year's moan, I just thought it would be more appropriate in here than under Rupert "the Shrek" Grint-Capaldi's leering mug. |
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I missed a bus this evening so had to walk to a different stop. This walk took me through the main student area of my city, past the house I lived in 9 years ago. Past the graveyard I used to spend 3 hours a night in, wandering around on the phone talking to the first girl I ever loved. A few months after these call, she cut me out of her life, for fear my mental illness was a danger to her. She has got back in touch a few times, only to disappear again afterwards for periods of varying length. I feel like a cunt being hung up on shit from nearly a decade ago, but I've never had a lot of friends or lovers or whatever, and she was probably the first real friend I made in my adult life. |
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I'm not saying I'm going to top myself, because I'm not. But if there's even the faintest possibility jumping off a cliff might end in me waking up, aged 8, having fallen asleep while eating some soup in the supermarket cafe my mum's taken me to, I might muster the energy to at least go and have a gander at those cliffs. |
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Interactions with my family constantly remind me of that saying "You are the average of the five people you spend the most time with". I'm reluctant to admit the implication that this means i'm better, or that I want to be better, than my family. It's just that I recognise some of the defining priciples in their behaviour which I don't want to develop in myself. They're not a bad lot, they're just utilising the tools they've developed to manage their lives. Much the same as my own poor habits of which I willfully remain ignorant. |
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Can one of you be a woman with whom I have a deep emotional connection with and stay up all night comforting me? I won't even exploit my position as the best looking man in Western Europe to try anything on. I'm just very tired of being very afraid and would like a little back up. Also I hate men. |
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main_1-Todd-Goldman-Signed-Boys-Are-Stupid-Throw-R.jpg It has taken a lifetime of cruelty that I have bared with a grin to reach this point. But I fucking hate women. |
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Well I did it lads. I've been whinging about my girlfriend taking me for granted and putting zero effort into the relationship on and off here for probably the last year, but I finally ended it. |
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Recently, my girlfriend cut herself after I had a conversation with her where I asked her to do a bit more around the house. I was calm and specific, I was asking for things like not leaving litter on the floor for days. |
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Does anyone have experience talking about sex - speicifally psycological - with NHS doctors? |
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Not sure if this is /emo/ or /101/ material but I'm fucking seething. |
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So I'm the lad who posted about breaking up with my girlfriend a few weeks ago. |
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Why do we fear death? If we die we cease to exist. If I die tomorrow I will be gone, and unable to ruminate over my death due to my lack of existence. |
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At this point, I can't tell if I'm having an anxiety attack or if I started having an anxiety attack 3 or 4 years ago and it just never stopped. |
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Yeah could be all that philosophical guff or it might just be the same as the answer to the question "Why do we like sex?". Because we evolved to. Organisms with mechanisms to avoid death survive and reproduce more than ones who don't. Or maybe all the other posters are right, despite there being no reason for it to have that capability or knowledge, your subconscious mind has loads of deep ponderings about fears of the unknown and missed opportunities which it uses to direct your conscious mind while, also for no reason, keeping it a secret from you. Yeah it's probably that one. |
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I might legitimately lose my job over what amounts to a fucking administrative error. |
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People have a weird sort of bipolar attitude towards healthcare staff honestly. |
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So I'm double jabbed but caught a variety of COVID probably last week or the week before, my symptoms were mild and not at all like the ones you're told to look out for and now after a week or more I only have the vaguest tickle in my throat and I'm still testing positive and to be honest fed up because I don't know what the current guidelines are based on. |
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>>31587 >>31588 >>31589 >>31590 >>31591 |
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I've realised two things today 1) something is seriously wrong with my stomach, I am probably dying because why wouldn't I be? And 2) I am utterly useless, but the only times I've been happy are when I've been of use to others. Don't read to much into that phrasing, nothing exploitative, just helping out. |
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Recent breakup lad here. |
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Said it before, I'll say it again; fuck CBT. |
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Look man I know this is imature but I'm struggling to accept new people into the group and feel as though I should preempt the loss of my position by giving it up voluntarily. |
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When it comes to personas, how do you manage the different faces you wear for different people? What happens when these people come together and you're tasked with wearing 2 masks simultaneously? |
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This is the first time I can remember where I've just completely saturated my mental fortitude. In a very literal sense, my life is falling apart, and I literally cannot get myself to care enough to fix anything. I'm just in a state of complete despair. To quote the Football People, I've been taking L after L for a couple of weeks now, and I can't even muster enough feeling to care, much less do anything about it. |
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creating.jpg Thinking about going to college but I'm certain I wont do anything with and skills or knowledge I develop. Spend 5 years learning to treat animals but I can't see myself becoming a vet. Learn tree surgery and botany but I'll collect nothing more than windfall and a selection of seeds. |
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Post 31622 deleted due to being self-reported but it's not entirely clear that's what was intended. I've saved the text if you want to recover it. |
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doldrums2.jpg >>31624>>31625 |
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This sounds daft and more than a bit sad, but is there an equivalent of shit like Scouts, but for disaffected adults in their 30s? |
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How do you deal with not being physically attracted to your partner? I love her and she's so supportive and we have good chemistry. But I have no desire to fuck her or give her kids. I've told her I'm asexual, but I'm not I am very sexually repressed and possibly gay. |
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image_2022-03-05_201200.png I'm beginning to regret ever trying to be ambitious in my life. |
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I'm thinking a lot about my autism. I work with autistic people, so have the whole "neurodivergent pride" sort of shtick fed to me. But when I think about my own autism, I would do anything for a cure. My peers talk about neurotypicals like they're the enemy, but to me, to be neurodivergent is my dream. I've lost multiple jobs due to being hampered by my condition, I've struggled socially, had a target painted on my back for being awkward. Maybe I'm just taking self loathing to the extreme, I just desperately want to be normal. |
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My brain shuts down when I try to talk about anything of consequence. It feels like it's more a lack of comunication skill, not necessarily education. |
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Not sure if this is /emo/ but what's the deal with a limit on accepting house viewings? We're basically being harassed at this point with about 6+ viewings per day while we're both WfH, random calls and texts from several different agents so random numbers all the time, plus we've got to do our own house viewings to find somewhere and have lives and all that, and keep the place essentially spotless each day, which is more stress. |
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Okay so this is a bit of a wierd one and difficult to talk about. |
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Ready to fucking scream, lads. |
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image_2022-04-11_195352693.png >>31650 |
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It's nearly 4am and I'm sat here drinking and lonely. I would like to rant about the property market but I don't know if I have the energy. |
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3 monkeys.jpg I'm begining to notice the extent of my willful ignorance. |
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I appear to have finally come to the conclusion that when the missus and lad are away, it's no longer fun to get drunk by myself and wank off. The pressing issue is that I don't actually have any real life friends at all. |
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d8a089d7.jpg There's no original thought outside of existance, so why try to create one? It feels like egotism and Idolatry to produce and collect art. |
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a1w3pdjM_700w_0.jpg jacking off to porn again when I find some decent amateur content; english, cute and playful, roughly the same age as me .. but then you see a section of their house, notice a hint of their work and realise they're completely beyond the legue you're playing in. |
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Have felt dead since I left the army in 2012 |
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There's two types of people when it comes to mental health, I reckon. There's people who are going through tough times, with real obstacles blocking their progress in life, or real problems with material consequences. Then there's dipshit spoiled twats who'll sulk because their already charmed life isn't as ideal as it could have been. |
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It never gets better, does it lads? It's just a constant chain of misery and worry. |
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image_2022-04-26_202813941.png Very minor in the grand scheme of things, but: |
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I can feel a wisdom tooth coming through. It's just that little extra bit of bollocks I can't be arsed with right now, because you know it won't be simple. It's not going to slide down and become an extra helping of gnashing power, no, no, no. It'll come out sideways, back to front and shaped like a pentagram. And I think, maybe, just maybe, after five years of dissapointments, cock ups and failure I could have one thing, not even go right, just not go wrong. But no, I'm going to get a gnarly sodding demon tooth wedged into the back of my head for my troubles. |
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I dont know if I might be gender fluid, or if I just enjoy wearing dresses and painting my nails. |
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nails.gif When I was a kid I used to sit on my mum's lap while she did her nails. I don't know why this was "allowed" because if I was in the room while she was putting on her make-up she would chase me away and say that seeing what happens when women put their make-up on would "turn me gay". This was back in the day when even fairly liberal people would maybe have a token gay friend but be open about not wanting their own child to "turn out" gay. For some reason my old, disgustingly homophobic, Ma was happy for me to join in and assist in the nail-painting process which I absolutely LOVED and is still one of my happiest memories. |
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The utter totality with which I have failed to fit into society is staggering. Suicide would be an understatement. |
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Have you ever noticed it's your perpensity to consider yourself that's making life depressing? Constantly looking to your reaction to stimulus, like you're forever in freefall, in orbit of yourself. I don't think I display narcicist behaviours but it's evident i think about myself an awful lot. Getting tired of it. |
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I'm torn between enjoying being single, and being sort of lonely. |
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It's been like 4 years since I last developed an infatuation with someone, but it's happening again and I know I shouldn't leave her my number with "hey, you know you mentioned growing shrooms - can you give me a text when your next batch is ready" but it's a valid reason for me to message anyone else, but obviously I have an ulterior motive. |
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Online dating rant. |
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1653047557411.jpg How realistic is it to blame your life circumstances on lacking one thing or another? It sounds self indulgent, right? If only I had thing, i could be happy, successful, or just plain 'better than this'. Happiness comes from within, but what about this Maslow's hierarchy of needs? Does avoiding sexual intimacy impact a persons ability to grow? Does that justify a life of minimal effort and care? |
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There's this chubby gal who desperately wants me to bang her but I'm not totally feeling it. She's okay looking and has a fun personality, but I have literally never fapped to a chubby chick in over 16 years of being a wanker. |
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This is probably all neurotic bullshit but I have no real outlet so apologies in advance. |
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>>31746 |
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>>31746 |
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A woman I was sleeping with for a year or so, before she moved back to Spain, has come to visit. She seems to have structured her time here in such a way as to make sure she spends as little of it with me as possible, I messaged her to see if she wanted to meet up and got 'I'm bowling with [mutual acquaintance]', she explicitly didn't suggest I joined them, and she didn't suggest another time she'd be free. |
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>>31748 |
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How fucked are you if you get slapped with a CCJ mid mortgage application? |
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31761
Never pursued social recognition, never pursued relationships (platonic or romantic) with any real gusto, stopped falling for materialistic trappings long ago. Main goal was to avoid work but I realised it would take less effort to treat easy work as a kind of waking meditation than to work to avoid work. I'm content but it feels like everything around me is trying to force an artificial discontentedness upon me. |
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>>31758 |
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>> | No. 31767
31767
Landlord's potentially selling the house I live in, and my income is so low I can't afford the deposit and first month's rent required for moving house. Fuck. |
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31771
I've realised I'm only attracted to black women. My girlfriend of 7 years is white. My girlfriend before that was black and she was very attractive. I haven't had sex with my current girlfriend (or with anyone) for 6 years as she is white and not black and therefore I am not attracted to her. Thanks for reading. |
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>>31460 here. I stopped playing along so she left me just before my birthday, also saying she'll move out. However, she's lost her job, tried benefits (tier 5 visa so not allowed), and still buys makeup and various crap. |
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>>31774 |
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>>31771 |
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31777
Setback after setback. One step forward, three steps back. I really can't be arsed with all of this any more. |
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>>31777 |
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31779
Why even live when I will never be able to fuck Lizzo. Not being funny, I genuinely don't see the point. My less sexy gf hasn't got the it factor that Lizzo does. |
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>>31779 |
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FBfi6MeWQAIieE3.jpg >>31783 |
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31790
Can't we all just agree that the only truly disgusting degenerate here is the political foot fetishist? |
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>>31790 |
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31793
I hope I never have to buy or sell property again in my life, it's months of complete agony and stress. Or at least, it is for someone like me, who feels like they're somehow cheating the system, and any day now somebody's going to stop me and tell me there's been some kind of mistake and that I shouldn't have even been allowed to get this far into the process. |
>> | No. 31794
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Going to purge myself. No alcohol no sugar no caffeine for a few weeks. Expunge the poisons from my body. |
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>>31794 |
>> | No. 31796
31796
You know what? I think there are just times in life when nobody feels like speaking to you, and that's okay. I had a moderate downer on Friday night into Saturday morning; nothing bad happened and nobody did anything wrong but I just feel like I contribute nothing, can't offer anything, and therefore nobody will ever help me with my own problems. The feeling passed after a while, but now I'm at work, with all different people, and we're all just sitting in silence. Nothing really needs doing right now so we're just waiting. I've tried to start a conversation with everyone, but it failed and we're all just silent again. I should probably see if I can spin this into a sense that society on the whole just isn't feeling very loving right now, and this is why the people I want to care about me seemingly don't. I'll be raging if this bored silence makes me spiral back into my funk instead. |
>> | No. 31797
31797
Is it possible to just have very generic features or just look like a very generic person to everybody? |
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>>31797 |
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>> | No. 31800
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stone-face-5-1197779032.jpg I don't feel any nostalgia anymore. |
>> | No. 31801
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e429f327b4d2ce20ced1e24564738e54.png >>31800 |
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>>31800 |
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>>31460 here. Have a bit of time so thought I'd update. |
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Ah, you know what lads, I'm actually getting quite worried about the way the economy's going. I'm trying not to watch the news or anything because it's just too depressing, but it's all anyone's on about these days, and the forecast just keeps getting darker and darker. |
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31810
I found this job on Indeed. It's really worthy, decent money and sounds like something I'd really enjoy, but the requirements basically read as "if you hadn't cocked up the last half-a-decade of your life, this could be you!". I'm not loving it. |
>> | No. 31811
31811
I had a really good few weeks recently, positivity and optimism as I was due to start a new job last week. Then the Queen died, training was postponed until after the funeral (I only found this out after waiting in the training venue for 30 minutes without the organiser ever showing up), and I've been unable to get hold of my new manager due to them being on leave, so I'm missing potential work. This knockback has made me go a bit mental, really want to just jump in the river and end it all. And then I feel worse because one little inconvenience has triggered a massive meltdown in me and I feel defective. |
>> | No. 31814
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I hate every fucking minute of my life and I wish I could kill myself. |
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31816
Might off myself if we have multi-day blackouts this winter |
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>>31815 |
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31819
I started a new job a couple of weeks ago. The training course is spread over a few months, and the induction to the organisation was a 2 week affair. I'm struggling, as not only do I lack confidence, but there isn't anyone to show me the ropes. If I were in any other role on the ward, there'd be people in the same role who'd been there longer who can show me how it's done. With my role, I'm the only one on the ward, and there hasn't been one of my role on that ward for a very long time. So I'm in a situation where I'm doing a job I don't know how to do whilst not having the training necessary to do the job successfully. It's got me really worked up, literal vomiting with anxiety, I've been off all week with stress. My manager has been really nice about it, but I feel like such a failure. |
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>>31818 |
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31824
I've been agonising all morning over a counselling session via MS Teams, but managed to get the laptop cam / mic set up and working just in time. I was told through reminder emails to expect a seperate email with instructions for joining the meeting, and... I get the link through a fucking TEXT MESSAGE on my phone, a few minutes after the session started. I will get a bollocking from my Manager now because it looks like I didn't bother to attend, and work is paying for it. I need counselling, Lads. |
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>>31822 |
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31826
I am so tired of waking up in this shithole every day. Wonder how many of us will just off our selves as we keep getting pushed to the brink. |
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>>31825 |
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Fbi_fN6XEAMh3BC.jpg My friend just invited me to a party in a few weeks. I feel awful, but I want to go, but it's horrible. It's not that I'm introverted, but I am a big massive loser and quite weird looking and my awareness of these things does induce a certain level of... social embarrassment. I'm not an introvert, it's not that. I've also never been to a grown up party. What does that mean? I don't know what to do at a party, might as well have invited me to a Somali langauge Bar Mitzvah. It's also a very long journey, but that's not really an issue. |
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>> | No. 31832
31832
I sometimes get a very abstract feeling that I'm coming a bit unravelled. Losing grip, spiralling out. Very hard to describe. |
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>> | No. 31834
31834
Bleeding out of my arsehole for the last two weeks which isn't anything new as I've had piles before but this time it's come with small blood clots. Shame it's impossible to get a doctor's appointment whether or not I need them to poke around me bum. |
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31835
51788OKYsVL._AC_SX466_.jpg >>31834 |
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31836
Aah, fuckit. The Mrs has been called in to hospital after a heart function test. It was meant to be a 2-day test, she's been called in after the first day. It's gonna be coronary artery bypass (or several). Sure, it'll be nice if this gets her back to full power, but it's all a bit troubling. |
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>>31836 |
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31838
The third antidepressant I've been put on made me throw up and has me in bed for the day feeling like shit. Again. |
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31840
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>> | No. 31851
31851
I've never been close to what you'd call a hard worker, but Christ I've gotten lazy. A few eyars ago I'd wake up at five-ish, go for a jog, then do an hour-and-a-half cycle/rail commute into Manchester. Now I work from home with a nine o'clock start and I can barely get out of bed at five-to. |
>> | No. 31852
31852
Smoked some weed for the first time in about... Fuck knows, ages, anyway, this weekend. Haven't felt right since. The stuff just utterly fucks with my head. Instant paranoia. |
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>> | No. 31856
31856
owdsj07wfx0a1.png Take care of yourself lads. Remember your m9s are here for you whenever you need us. Don't be afraid to open up. And if you feel a bit of a lump on your bollock, do go to the doctor. |
>> | No. 31857
31857
Time to die.png I've begun to recognise my association with this computer as death. |
>> | No. 31858
31858
I thought getting an internet connection again would re-open my world by giving me plenty to do and people to talk with .. but it's just the same as it's always been. Wade through 9gag (laugh, waste time, consume propaganda), 4chan (porn and more porn), britfa.gs (the occasional informative/technical post drowning in apathy and laddish misogyny), then struggle to enjoy an MMO (in which nobody actually talks to one another). The cycle is killing me. I don't want this. |
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assorted quotes from nicholas carrs the shallows.jpg >>31860 |
>> | No. 31864
31864
I always get to a point in a relationship, no matter how much I like the person, where I start questioning things, and it's hard to tell whether it's just me being overly critical, having too high expectations, or if I'm right to have concerns over something. Am I just looking for faults, searching for a reason to be unhappy, or should I realise it's another bad match I'm not happy with, and telling myself otherwise is ignoring the early warning signs? |
>> | No. 31865
31865
A hot piece of tail I recently met replied to a text and suddenly the world is all sunshine and daisies again. |
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31866
>>31865 |
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31868
>>31865 |
>> | No. 31869
31869
I feel guilty when turning on the radiators to heat my home, even before this gas prices business. I haven't earned it, I don't deserve it. It's too easy. |
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>>31869 |
>> | No. 31871
31871
Timber frame.png >>31870 |
>> | No. 31872
31872
I keep developing fixations on attractive women, then getting resentful that I can't pursue them due to being in a long term relationship. One of the cooks at Popeyes is a gorgeous fat black girl with facial piercing and a massive arse. Everytime I walk past I look in hoping to see her. But I can never have her, due to being in a sexless relationship with my unattractive gf. It's sexless because I haven't wanted to fuck her in six years as she's unattractive, she wants sex but I pretend I'm asexual. I love my gf, but I resent her because I met her when I was 22. I only lost my virginity at 21, so in my whole life I've only had 4 sex partners. I wish I used my youth to explore the sex world, instead of chaining the proverbial ball to myself and have to put up with her tedious existence. |
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>>31872 |
>> | No. 31874
31874
Work is expanding and a load of new positions have been listed. |
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>>31872 |
>> | No. 31877
31877
FSQcTNXXsAEAPzB.jpg I really feel I'd like to spend what little remains of my 20s getting slightly pissed and hanging out, but I have literally no idea how to make friends, besides travelling back in time and not fucking up university after 30 minutes or getting a real job where my colleagues don't really annoy me. Each of these scenarios seems about as likely as the other. |
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>>31877 |
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>> | No. 31880
31880
granddesigns.jpg I've got this sneaking suspicion my mate only really wants to play computer games with me and basically nothing else. And maybe that's like, fine, because he's got a bunch of bollocks going on in his life and sometimes it's nice to mong out with some unrelenting slaughter, but at the same time there's this creeping feeling that if John Carmack makes significant progress in the field of AI he'd never speak to me again. My mate that is, not John Carmack, we're not on speaking terms as is. |
>> | No. 31881
31881
I don't think I hate women. But I do feel like a lot of them have a badly over-inflated sense of self importance, and it makes them act like twats. I don't think I notice it as often in men, or if I do it's easier to ignore; perhaps because I usually don't want to shag men. |
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31889
You lot are very fucking strange I have to say. |
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>>31887 |
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>>31881 |
>> | No. 31892
31892
Longstanding issues. |
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>>31891 |
>> | No. 31894
31894
maxresdefault.jpg >>31890 |
>> | No. 31895
31895
It sometimes reminds me of that thing you may have heard about, where some American schools lower the grade requirements specifically for black students, supposedly in the name of equality. But it doesn't take a genius to see how that bigotry of low expectation betrays an actual racist viewpoint deep down, that black people are dumb, even if they are consciously trying not to be. |
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>>31891 |
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>> | No. 31898
31898
There is genuinely nothing more confounding on .gs than that one lad who suddenly takes issue with people posting swear words. Ctril+f tells me that there's 10 uses of "fuck", 3 for "cunt" and 6 "twat" on /sfw/ (it's nothing personal I just got fed up of the fat, naked, lasses), but out of the blue comes britfa.gs' very own form tutor to have a go at you for using bad words because you disagreed with whatever it was he said. So we're clear I'm not saying it's actually a single person, but it's an archetype I've noticed over time. |
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>>31898 |
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1574264598483.jpg I've watched a bit of female scat videos recently and think I might actually like the idea of an attractive woman rewarding me for eating her shit. We wouldn't play with it, she'd just .. i donno, shit and piss in my mouth, onlt a plate or something, then encourage me to consume it while promising sex and stuff. |
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>>31899 |
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31904
I would just like to add that "have a word with yourself" is terrible advice, always, swearing or no. If your attitudes are so poor that you need to have a word with someone, then surely you are the worst person to have a word with. Have a word with someone else. Then you might actually get some worthwhile help. Telling someone to have a word with themselves just puts the blame back on them when total isolation doesn't solve their problems. It kicks off an atrocious feedback loop which ends with sex tourism or trying to marry an anime character. Don't do that. |
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>>31900 |
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Why do I always end up with women with weirdly specific sexual hang ups. |
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>> | No. 31914
31914
I used to eat my jizz routinely as a teenlad - mostly because it made for quick and easy cleaning (my bedroom was groundfloor while the bathroom was upstairs). I didn't know about jizz rags at that point. |
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Ludovik.jpg As the cumeater anon I feel qualified enough to inform you all that 'cum' is significantly different in texture to snot. Semen is similar, but the sperm (or perhaps carbohydrates?) within layer your mouth long after the moisture is absorbed, leaving a dry texture around your tongue, gums and palate. |
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>> | No. 31926
31926
My life is becoming quite the kafkaesque nightmare right now. Actually I don't think that's the right word. It's more like Terry Gilliam's Brazil where I'm constantly being fucked by the dystopia bureaucracy we live under. |
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>>31926 |
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31928
My friend, my lovely beautiful wonderful friend who makes me feel like my life finally has purpose, got her drink spiked on a night out last night. I accept that I simp over her something awful, but it's no more than she deserves for making me so incredibly happy after the past decade or more of miserable loneliness with friends I don't actually like and who are all poisonous parasites. I don't think she got raped or anything, but I am absolutely consumed with murderous rage right now. The worst thing is, she invited me out with her, and I have a horrible cold and was at death's door last night so I politely declined. So she went out alone to the local bar, to brighten other people's lives, and some fucker spiked her drink. |
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>>31928 |
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>> | No. 31931
31931
I am so tired of being sad all the time..It's been most of my life at this point. Why can't I just be happy. |
>> | No. 31932
31932
I'm not unhappy these days so much as just bored. used to be really happy in my own company and always found things to occupy myself but lately I'm just finding myself at a loose end, and I just sit and scroll the internet for hours, pointlessly. |
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Special Daisy.jpg >>31932 |
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>>31938 |
>> | No. 31949
31949
I would like a job that doesn't make me want to kill myself. |
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>>31949 |
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buy a man fish he day.jpg >>31944 |
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>>31949 |
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31960
My girlfriend pestered me for sex last night when I really wasn't in the mood because I have things weighing on my mind. She never tried finding out what was the matter but she takes it extremely personally if I don't want sex or don't cum during sex, so in the end I had to push my own feelings down to comfort her and reassure her there's nothing wrong with her. It always seems like my emotions come secondary. In the end we had shitty sex where I could barely maintain an erection, just because it meant I'd have more chance of getting a decent night's sleep. |
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I visited my family this week. My older brother (36) and my middle aged dad were talking about Andrew Tate (this was before the Greta interaction). They were talking about how badass he is, getting "cancelled" and still being influential and successful. Also talking about how drag queens are grooming kids to mutilate themselves, how great Alex Jones, how Trump should run Twitter. I know this sounds like I'm building a straw man but it really happened. My brother said people who listen to the mainstream media are stupid, as the real truth can only be found from people like Joe Rogan and Graham Hancock. He also said Earth is hollow, with entrances to the lush interior at the North and South Poles. |
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Why is my depression so much worse in the days after drinking? It’s like my medication stops working. Fuck man. Is there any way to cheer myself up? |
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Talking to women in their 20s. Things go well until they start referencing some popular instatok meme or use some fresh new youngster slang and I have to nod my head and pretend I'm Hip and WIth It, while witnessing the generation gap widening to a chasm in real time. Fuck I feel old. |
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28f05362a28af2cd60994622dc446439~2.jpg >>31970 |
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It was my dad's birthday a couple of weeks ago. I spent a couple of days with him just before the birthday, and on the day texted him a happy birthday message. I forgot to get him a card, and tbh I don't really see the point of birthday cards. A Valentine's card from a partner, that has meaning. But "Dear Dad, Happy Birthday, have a good day, Love [me]" is empty of meaning and it's not like he holds on to cards. The day after his birthday my stepmum texted me saying it was selfish of me to not get him a card and that in this family we celebrate life events and I really need to up my game. This kind of annoyed me. My partner sent a belated card and a bunch of flowers, but has heard nothing from them since that text. I just can't get my head around why I need to buy a bit of paper to say a message I can convey through SMS. I generally hate birthdays anyway, even my own, it's just social pressure. |
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Dudes, I'm struggling. I want to talk about it but I'm ashamed to be seeking attention. I'm fucking lonely man. How pathetic it is to post this then come back tomorrow, hopeful and excited to be expecting replies. This isn't life, man, it's death. Living is outside. |
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31994
Not heard directly from my family in over a month. Got a message from older sibling this afternoon. "Have you acknowledged [younger sibling]'s grades yet?". Younger sibling posted in group chat his uni grades. Good grades. Didn't really feel the need to be the 10th person to say a variation on "Well done [sibling] you're amazing". Not out of spite or jealousy, it's just it's not like my endorsement will give him a boost or whatever. Feel like telling the older sibling to fuck off. Nobody gives a shit about me until I need to verbally fellate my younger sibling. |
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I'm not going to do anything silly but really not a fan of being alive right now. Had a major meltdown today over trivial shit and it makes me want to cease existing. |
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32031
I am probably going to kill myself at some point. It might not be for ages yet, but there's no way they're putting "natural causes" on my death certificate. |
>> | No. 32032
32032
Come to the realisation (or perhaps I came to it long ago and just suppressed it) that all the friendships I've had I've ended on my own terms. Now I'm 30-odd and alone save for a partner with their own established social circles and no desire to mix me up in them. |
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32033
>>32032 |
>> | No. 32034
32034
>>32031 Please don't. There's like thrdd active posters on this entire website, and we need all of them. |
>> | No. 32035
32035
Looked up a lad I used to be close with. He's in some gay furry throuple now and living life. |
>> | No. 32037
32037
5OUP_followed_by_the_F1SH.jpg >>32035 |
>> | No. 32044
32044
Some years ago I caused the death of my dog, who was recovering from an operation. I had let her jump onto the sofa, which she did with a yelp having pulled out her internal stiches. She died a few days later from internal bleeding. |
>> | No. 32045
32045
>>32044 |
>> | No. 32046
32046
Today is the two year anniversary of the suicide of a person I was friends-ish with at uni. |
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32047
>>32046 |
>> | No. 32048
32048
Here's an awkward question and I'm not messing you about: What's going on with my strong preference for a particular different race/ethnicity of women? |
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>>32048 |
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>>32046 |
>> | No. 32051
32051
My former therapist is ghosting me. She said she'd get back to me about another appointment, but I've tried to whatsapp her several times in the last few months and even left her a voice mail last week. Her phone number hasn't changed, and she's online on whatsapp almost every day. Things got a little heated the last time I was there a few years ago, but I'm not sure it warrants avoiding me like the plague. She knows me best, I spent several years with her, and I don't want to go through weeks or possibly months of getting acquainted with another therapist and having to tell them my entire life story again. I paid my therapist shedloads of money out of my own pocket because it wasn't on the NHS, which makes it all the more disappointing that this is now happening. She could at least be honest and tell me outright that she's not open to continuing our sessions. I guess I'd just expect more from somebody with a distinguished background in clinical psychiatry who used to work at a major secure hospital. Or maybe that's just the way they are trained to deal with people when they become a little irate. |
>> | No. 32052
32052
My and my partner's work schedules are clashing horribly at the minute, and it's making it very difficult to spend time together. We live a fair distance apart, not "long distance" distance, but far enough that just popping round at short notice is quite impractical; and it's certainly not helped by how pricey everything is getting these days. If our days off don't line up it can be weeks between visits, and apart from the obvious issues of loneliness and yearning, I would be lying if I said I'm not worried about it causing us to drift apart in the longer term. |
>> | No. 32053
32053
>>32051 |
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32054
>>32053 |
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32055
>>32054 |
>> | No. 32056
32056
Tough time, lately, lads. A few big projects fizzled out without so much as a whimper. Arguing with girlfriend after a really terrible trip taken together. I'm getting really wound up when I'm shown a lack of respect when I'm out and about, too. Work feels like a money treadmill, or like one of those little credit bikes from Black Mirror. |
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32057
>>32056 |
>> | No. 32058
32058
snax.jpg >>32057 |
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>>32058 |
>> | No. 32060
32060
Sounds like the hedonic treadmill: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hedonic_treadmill |
>> | No. 32061
32061
bridge2.jpg I've been having a bit of trouble with sleep lately. I've been restricting late night tea for a few days now in an effort to keep myself from staying awake all night, but I'm still reluctant to actually go to bed. I may have already mentioned this here - there's some vague memory of typing that marked up text before. |
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32062
>>32061 |
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>>32062 |
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>>32063 |
>> | No. 32065
32065
What do you do when you clash with your partner over something, and they're just completely unwilling to compromise or even apparently take you seriously about it? It shouldn't be a big issue and it feels silly to do something as drastic as breaking up over it, but it's something that I am unhappy about and will always be unhappy about if she won't listen. But she's completely committed to dying on this particular hill, and it leaves me thinking well, that's not very fucking nice to the person you love is it. |
>> | No. 32066
32066
>>32065 |
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>>32066 |
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32068
>>32064 |
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>>32068 |
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>>32069 |
>> | No. 32071
32071
Everybody (including me) is miserable nowadays but the cost of living and shift to remote working has hit therapists so hard that the majority of them have moved away from offices and now operate solely online. |
>> | No. 32072
32072
My meds have changed and now I think I'm having a manic episode I'm not sleeping properly and I have boundless energy and I keep buying shit I don't need. |
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32073
>>32072 |
>> | No. 32074
32074
I feel no shame cutting myself at 30 years old. It's the only thing that stops the pain - bar meds zombifying me - at this point. Onwards! |
>> | No. 32075
32075
maxresdefault.png >>32074 |
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>>32075 |
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>>32076 |
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>>32076 |
>> | No. 32079
32079
So I'm in a weird situation, if I take a high dose of medication, I am zombified but I don't hear voices so much. If I take the next dose down, I have lots of energy but constant voices in my head. Both doses effectively disable me, it's just deciding what disability is more viable - mad cunt or slothful cunt. |
>> | No. 32080
32080
I fuckin hate you alllllll |
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32081
>>32079 |
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32082
>>32081 |
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>>32082 |
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>>32081 |
>> | No. 32085
32085
My mum is reaching the end of her tether and I'm not sure how to help. She's the main carer for her dad, who is in his 90s. She feels trapped by it, but she doesn't want to put him in a home or rely on care workers. She feels like she's being cheated out of what might be her last good years - by the time he croaks it, she might be too old to enjoy her retirement. What really gets her down is the fact that she never gets any thanks for it. |
>> | No. 32086
32086
Why shouldn't I stab the next person who tries to ruin my day for no reason? |
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32087
>>32086 |
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32088
>>32085 |
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32089
>>32088 |
>> | No. 32098
32098
I'm too ill to work. I've had so much time off in my new job, but I had a meds reduction recently which has floored me. I know it makes me look like a lazy/unreliable cunt, but I'm literally vomiting and shaking and my anxiety is insane. I've asked to be referred to occupational health, but it's just embarassing to be honest, to be so incompetent and useless. |
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32099
>>32098 |
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>>32098 |
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>>32101 |
>> | No. 32103
32103
Not really one for fast food but I made the mistake of looking at Domino's to gauge how cost of living and inflation is hitting the big boys. An alternative Big Mac Index, if you will. |
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>>32103 |
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>>32103 |
>> | No. 32110
32110
Dominos is usually my favourite pizza place but I had one the other night and it was shite. I'd happily sack it off but it's difficult to find quality pizza because it's something that any 1-star hygiene rating takeaway pumps out along with their burgers and kebabs. |
>> | No. 32134
32134
i'm going to end up killing myself one day and i don't even want to die, i just don't want to be here anymore. |
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>>32103 |
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>>32135 |
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>>32136 |
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>>32136 |
>> | No. 32139
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dee.jpg Yeah, I think I'm giving up. |
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>>32139 |
>> | No. 32141
32141
Have either of you spent Easter alone due to lack of family and friends? It'd be oddly comforting to know that I'm not alone in this. |
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>>32141 |
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>>32141 |
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>>32141 |
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>>32141 |
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>>32141 |
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>>32145 |
>> | No. 32148
32148
Well, think I might have fucked it with the missus. Sigh. |
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>>32148 |
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>>32145 |
>> | No. 32151
32151
Can't do my new job. I am fundamentally lacking in the skills required to do it effectively, even if on paper it sounded perfect for me. |
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>>32151 |
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>>32152 |
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>>321531 |
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>>32151 |
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>>32155 |
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>>32156 |
>> | No. 32158
32158
Just smashed up some stuff and screamed until my throat felt raw over a minor inconvenience. I need to get back on my meds. |
>> | No. 32159
32159
I am completely fucking up my career because I can't decide what I 'want to do with my life'. |
>> | No. 32161
32161
off the charts.png >>32159 |
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>>32161 |
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>>32162 |
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>>32161 |
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>>32164 |
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>>32165 |
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>>32159 |
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>>32167 |
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>>32140 |
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>>32169 |
>> | No. 32171
32171
Had a fight with my partner over the phone. |
>> | No. 32172
32172
I hate going into my office. A girl at work is traveling the world with her boyfriend and buying a house together, another girl is hoping off to the US regularly, my boss got a big promotion despite being thoroughly incompetent while I seemingly tail-spin and the women I see on dating apps are all going on expensive holidays and looking for even more skiing holidays. Everyone is winning but me whose a single bloke still renting a flat, no drivers licence, struggling to think about how I can budget for hobbies and not even an idea of how I could ever afford a good holiday. |
>> | No. 32173
32173
>>32169 |
>> | No. 32174
32174
I just realised that while I always like to tell people I'm not a "drug person" any more, just this year I've taken reasonable amounts of coke, speed, MDMA and ketamine. The only drugs I gave up were weed and... Weed. |
>> | No. 32175
32175
I think my long-term relationship is reaching the end of the road and I'm trying to work out how fucked I'm going to be financially. This is me thinking aloud on part. |
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32176
>>32175 |
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>>32176 |
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>>32175 |
>> | No. 32179
32179
There's been a development regarding the mother/son abuse as mentioned in >>/b/457305 |
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>>32177 |
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>>32179 |
>> | No. 32182
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8ca.jpg Does anyone ever get that feeling like they just need to be "let off the ride"? |
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>>32182 |
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>>32183 |
>> | No. 32185
32185
Defend my friend for me. I am angry with her, but maybe that's just me and she hasn't actually done anything wrong. |
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32186
>>32185 |
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>>32185 |
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>>32187 |
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>>32185 |
>> | No. 32190
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S07E02-iBElQTNt-subtitled.jpg >>32189 |
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>>32190 |
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>>32191 |
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>>32190 |
>> | No. 32194
32194
It's me (>>32185) again. |
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>>32194 |
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>>32194 |
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>>32194 |
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>>32194 |
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>>32196 |
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>>32199 |
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>>32201 |
>> | No. 32203
32203
I've probably posted a variation of this post, regularly for 7 years. |
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>>32203 |
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>>32203 |
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>>32203 |
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>>32203 |
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>>32201 |
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>>32209 |
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>>32209 |
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E_UCdthXsAMHkYN.jpg Found myself thinking about this today passage by Norm McDonald today. |
>> | No. 32213
32213
>>32063 |
>> | No. 32214
32214
When you meet a woman (female) in meatspace and then start texting her, should you ask about what she does for a living when she mentions work conflicts getting in the way of scheduling a date? Would a Regular Person expect you to inquire about their job through a text-based medium? |
>> | No. 32215
32215
>>32214 |
>> | No. 32216
32216
Glum_Face.jpg Fucked up a job interview and feeling rather glum about it. Not much more to it than that. |
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32217
>>32216 |
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32218
>>32214 |
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32219
>>32216 |
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32220
>>32214 |
>> | No. 32221
32221
Made a FetLife. Don't know why. I'm in a committed sexless tedious obligation of a relationship so I can't do owt. So many hot fat alt girls who'd give me a pegging worthy of Prince Wills. But they're out of reach. Stuck with unattractive gf who I want to kill. |
>> | No. 32222
32222
D5_JBL0X4AANg10.jpg >>32221 |
>> | No. 32223
32223
Like I geninely think this is it why bother continuing this horrible boring unfulfilling life nobody likes me i have no skills or talents or prospects othert han 10 packets of diazepam |
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32224
>>32223 |
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32225
>>32224 |
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32226
>>32217 |
>> | No. 32230
32230
Is it normal for people with autism/asperges to not have or supress special interests? I have a qualified diagnosis but regularly doubt it. Apart from a dire routine which is fairly difficult to shift, I don't really do anything, yet resist changing through what I believe is a mixture of apathy, fear of failure and a general sense that I'm too retarded to perform without a huge degree of LARPing. |
>> | No. 32231
32231
>>32230 |
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>>32231 |
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32241
>>32240 |
>> | No. 32249
32249
I'm really struggling with the executive dysfunction you tend to get with depression over the last few weeks. I've been depressed on and off for years and I've learned a lot of good ways to stay on top of it, in terms of the overall mood and inner sense of wellbeing, but the one thing I've never really learned to defeat is this thing where you just can't motivate yourself to stay on top of life's daily duties and just start gradually slipping behind and neglecting things. |
>> | No. 32250
32250
>>32249 |
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32251
>>32241 |
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>>32251 |
>> | No. 32253
32253
Just once I'd like for something to go horribly wrong and have it not be my fault. A nice little moment of relief whereby the shame, hopelessness and frustration are offloaded onto someone or something else, just one time. Because everything's always going to go horribly wrong, but does it always have to be my fault? Again and again? Forever? Oh, it does, okay. |
>> | No. 32254
32254
>>32253 |
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32255
>>32253 |
>> | No. 32260
32260
maxresdefault.jpg I have something wrong with my bellend, a weird white lump, and my GP just told me to use Canesten for the next week and to then let her know if it doesn't fix it. This was after waiting a week for my GP to change having moved and another to see if it would clear up on its own - she just sent me a text on what to do based on the description. |
>> | No. 32261
32261
>>32260 |
>> | No. 32263
32263
I've been acting like a complete prick all day for no good reason. |
>> | No. 32264
32264
I'm not saying I'm on the verge of a massive breakdown, but I am thinking about replaying the entire Mass Effect series. |
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32269
>>32264 |
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32270
>>32269 |
>> | No. 32271
32271
I’ve always had a lot of drama and uncertainty in my life. More than a year ago I began stopping that, until a few months ago where I really relaxed and let go. |
>> | No. 32298
32298
I can't cope or focus or do anything. I post this every few months, but it doesn't stop being true. I'm a serial fuck up and I can't leave the house despite weeks of trying. Like, come on, what's the point? Eh? Come on. |
>> | No. 32299
32299
I've forgotten what I came here to moan about and it seems counterproductive to recall the feeling. |
>> | No. 32300
32300
So uh .. I accidentally found the youtube channel of that girl I like(d), whom I posted about here some years ago. |
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32301
>>32300 |
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32302
>>32300 |
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32303
>>23560 |
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>>32301 |
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32305
>>32300 |
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32306
>>32305 |
>> | No. 32307
32307
Man, I'm sorry to go on but the thing is this has happened after about 2 weeks of mounting stress on the run up to a routine appointment. It happens right after this appointment, right when I'm trying to use the internet 'properly' to explore local oportunities. It seems as though every fucking time I try to grow beyond my shell I percieve the events as a tapestry of universal will or some shit. I can ignore it, but it hurts to do so and my experience of life is stagnating because of it. |
>> | No. 32308
32308
>>32307 |
>> | No. 32309
32309
All this talk of infatuation has me thinking about a girl who hasn't left my mind since I met her in 2012. She really was a piece of shit in some senses, manipulative, flaky, hypocritical. But she was the first girl I ever fell in love with, and for several periods of time the only friend I had in this world. Last saw her in November 2017, since then I assume she left social media or blocked me on all of them, I didn't do anything bad to her she just frequently cut off contact only to reengage some time later. I think about her every day, think about those few chances I had to make it into something more only to have external factors fuck things up. How do you get over an eleven year obsession which realistically has a near 0% chance of being fulfilled? I have a loving long term gf who would do anything for me, yet if my old flame messaged me tomorrow asking me to come round, I'd drop everything. |
>> | No. 32310
32310
>>32309 |
>> | No. 32311
32311
youasked_ghostsex_article.jpg Lads, the heatwave has left all of us vulnerable to horny spirits. We already know the magical ritual to expel them from the body. |
>> | No. 32312
32312
FwAipSxXoAICWjJ.jpg Everyone else is wrong. She's the one. Go for it or live forever in ignominy. |
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32313
>>32312 |
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>>32312 |
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>>32314 |
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d7afe4d32acae31aa0cd605417545e9b.jpg |
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32321
151347087440.jpg Alright, lost my post due to duplicate file. |
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>>32321 |
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32325
>>32314 |
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>>32325 |
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32327
>>32326 |
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>>32325 |
>> | No. 32329
32329
Getting rejected by her is definitely the quickest and easiest way to get over it but that just puts all the stress on her of feeling stalked and violated, which isn't okay. That's assuming she's just some random woman with a few public videos. If she's making a living from her channel I say go for it, people exploiting parasocial relationships for money are responsible for the effect it has on others. |
>> | No. 32330
32330
>>32329 |
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>>32330 |
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32332
>>32331 |
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32333
Does it change things if I said this woman and I have met in person, before? |
>> | No. 32334
32334
>>32330 |
>> | No. 32335
32335
Where's the best place to find a slag to cheat on your partner with? I'm sick to fuck of my girlfriend, I've not had sex in 7 years, I need to dip my wick. |
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32336
>>32335 |
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>>32336 |
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>>32335 |
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>>32335 |
>> | No. 32340
32340
A few weeks ago my girlfriend indicated she wanted to try for kids next year. Fine. Then today she said she wanted to try for kids right now. I told her the agreement was for next year, now she's being a cunt saying I don't know what it's like to be a woman. Might just bin her off. |
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>>32340 |
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>>32340 |
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>>32340 |
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>>32343 |
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32345
The issue is basically she's reaching an age where her chance of successful pregnancy is lowering. Still got a good few years I reckon, but I understand her fear. The issue with "right now" vs "in a year" is that right now, I'm due to start a new job, she's just got a promotion, we're not in a great place financially (not like the wolves are at the door but we live from paycheck to paycheck), there's so much in flux right now that I believe it would be unfair to bring a kid into the mix. I previously said I wouldn't want a kid until we had our own house - realistically, that's not happening for a while, so I compromised on that. I'm generally a very cautious person, and want to have all my ducks in a row before having a sprog. She is quite impulsive and doesn't really consider actions leading to consequences. After we argued about it on Saturday night I was ready to go hang myself to get out of the situation. Pussied out in the end. Sometimes I fantasise about killing her in her sleep. I know I'd go to jail but at least it'd give me time to catch up on books. |
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>>32345 |
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>>32345 |
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>>32345 |
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>>32345 |
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>>32349 |
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shutterstock_764658046-280758514.jpg Dudes, I don't know how to satisfy my desire for social interaction. |
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>>32351 |
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>>32351 |
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>>32351 |
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>>32355 |
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>>32355 |
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32359
I used be a hopeless loser and now I'm looking back at that guy thinking "fuck me, how do I get to being him again"? It's miserable. I'd have killed me if I'd seen how I was going to turn out, not killed myself, but murdered me. I'm babbling like an idiot, but that's me now, a zero watt bulb. |
>> | No. 32379
32379
When she's here, I adore here. I would do anything for her and not care, out of pure selfless love. After she's gone home, I can only think about her worst traits, resenting her and feeling taken for granted. |
>> | No. 32380
32380
>>32379 |
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>>32379 |
>> | No. 32382
32382
I am in a major mental health crisis, and due to some communication issues between the LMHT at my old house and the LMHT at my new house, I am essentially in limbo without support from either team. I gave myself a second degree burn, had to go to doctor to get it looked at as it had gone green, they've stuck an iodine patch on it and I have to go back every couple of days to get it redressed. |
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32383
>>32382 |
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>>32381 |
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>>32384 |
>> | No. 32386
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Wat dog.jpg I find myself sneering at the thought of social society; friends, social communication, etc. |
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>>32386 |
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>>32387 |
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>>32388 |
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>>32389 |
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>>32389 |
>> | No. 32392
32392
I don't want to get into specifics because you could ID my previous posts dating back years if I did, but tonight, whilst talking to a friend online, I referenced something that related to another thing that I was trying to get into years ago. This career path petered out because I'm a wastrel and a prick and I didn't try hard enough. But when I made that accidental implication to my friend he immediately asked me about it with this tone of excitement that's really left an impression on me. I corrected his assumption and we moved on without another thought. Now, of course, that impression is manifesting mostly as sadness, but even just the vaguest hint of the idea of the suggestion of postive reinforcement felt... good. I can't really recall the last time I felt good for any amount of time. A part I went to last year? Maybe, but even then I was bullshitting half the time I was there. |
>> | No. 32393
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Untitled.jpg How horny is the average man? I would rather go home and have a wank than bang an average looking bird throwing herself at me, but all of me m8s think I'm crazy for skipping out on all these missed opportunities. Starting to think I've developed abnormally high standards from too much porn. |
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Screenshot 2023-07-10 at 01-00-23 Your Network Def.jpg >>32397 |
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I've got a feeling I need to take a good month or two off work for stress and/or depression, but I've no idea what you say or do to get that. I just need a long fucking break before I lose it and hurt myself or someone else. |
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Got job offer at end of May. They require me to have an occupational health assessment due to my disability. |
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>>32405 |
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Get drunk/drugged out and head out on the town. Start firing on all cylinders upon encountering women who reciprocate my advances. Meet the same women when sober and they're far less shaggable and/or way wrinklier than initially ascertained. |
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>>32406 |
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Years ago I used to get drunk every night, have some fun, laugh, cry and let it all out, rinse and repeat. It seemed to help me anyway. Then I moved on to weed. I'd get high and have a fun evening and it helped me sleep because I'd just pass out instead of laying there for hours overthinking. |
>> | No. 32412
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A lot of the time the posts I make here and elsewhere are misconstrued. For a while I've wondered if this is due to an autistic manner in communication or simply the nature of sharing anonymous messages between an unknown number of participants (Britfa.gs is 3 people). |
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Is authenticity to oneself a more powerful force than the need to conform and avoid trouble? |
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I've been awake 30 hours I've taken 30mg of diazepam and I still feel restless. |
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>>32423 |
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I hate this country and everyone in it. However, I suspect we really aren't too different from anywhere else. |
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>>32428 |
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yKHce5u.jpg >>32430 |
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>>32428 |
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We’re naturally aware of our own faults more than others. The same applies to countries. Some things here are shit, but there are many less-tangible things which are great here. My girlfriend loves working here; working from home, an entire five weeks of holiday, no compulsory overtime, and nice colleagues. |
>> | No. 32434
32434
We’re naturally aware of our own faults more than others. The same applies to countries. Some things here are shit, but there are many less-tangible things which are great here. My girlfriend loves working here; working from home, an entire five weeks of holiday, no compulsory overtime, and nice colleagues. |
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>>32432 |
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How do I properly motivate myself to do job applications? I've been stuck for over a year trying to get a new job but while I get close I half-arse it and copy-paste responses. |
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>>32439 |
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I got a problem with sex, man, and I doubt how much more britfa.gs can take hearing about it. |
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tree_rings-3082493811.jpg >>32442 |
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How important is it to make an impact in the world? |
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>>32449 |
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In a relationship I am always the one being taken for granted, I am always the one being expected to give and give and give, and then when I have needs it's too much to ask that I have some love and support in kind. My connection with my partners is always dependent on me giving them what they want from me, but when I am low and need help, I get double fucked because I'm no longer providing them what they want any more, and therefore I'm not even entitled to be treated with basic respect and dignity, let alone given the emotional care I need. The entire relationship is based on me giving one way to them and as soon as I question that I'm the bad one, I get punished for even daring to show human feelings instead of being a fucking human kitchen appliance that buys them things, cooks them dinner and fucks them. |
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Not sure how I just managed to do that. Using the newest version of Vivaldi |
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wat.jpg How am I supposed to deal with this? |
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appropriate image.jpg I've been listening to this Dixon Dallas, a country singer with a lot of tracks about homosex (as posted here >>/beat/13930). |
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Called Samaritans last night, as I was struggling and my girlfriend was out and I didn't want to call her and ruin her night. They were really good, and even called me this afternoon to follow up and check I was alright. |
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>>32497 |
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nVL4_rYi6OBKECZbXM1shjrAKmiESltL.jpg >>32497 |
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How do you cancel out murderous thoughts? Not to be an edgelord but my head is fucked and I'm getting voices telling me to kill. I don't listen to my voices but now those thoughts are mine not the voices', I want to go out and rape and kill but I don't want to do that but my head is telling me to do it. The only way I can shed this feeling of unease and anxiety is to take a life. |
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How are these the same thing.jpg There's absolutely fuck all in charity shops for overweight people, other than old mens clothes. Amazon is full of falsly advertised items and the highstreet is overpriced. |
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funny-pictures-auto-south-park-instructor-360210.j.jpg >>32507 |
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The Mrs is accusing me of being homophobic because I'm not 'excited' to go to a gay wedding of two people I barely know. I've tried explaining to her that I don't have a deep seated hatred of gay people but I'd rather not watch a union of two men for several hours with displays of affection. |
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Screenshot 2023-08-16 at 20-51-03 Self-pity - Wiki.png Feeling sorry for oneself. |
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>>32523 |
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A girl I know got married this weekend. |
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clvv.png I spent about half an hour writing a several paragraph essay, analysing the meaning of the scene where the titular character sees a wild wolf in the 2009 adaptation of Fantastic Mr Fox, in a reply to some random stranger's comment. |
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I'm gonna' die super alone. |
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0zq7ihrvsrq61.jpg >>32539 |
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How do you deal with disapointment in your performance? Revealing your level of skill, knowledge, ability before assessors? |
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image_2023-08-25_152537580.png >>32544 |
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>>32545 |
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My girlfriend's been gone for the week and it's not bothered me at all. I should miss her but I'm indifferent. Thinking about it now, for the last couple of months we barely spend time together. We sleep in separate rooms (done this for years, it's more her choice as I tend to have bad episodes on a night), I eat dinner in my room, we don't go out together. When we do sit together, she's usually reading manga on her phone while I watch TV. Occasionally we do have nights where we're up talking for hours and I love those times, and they remind me why I fell for her. But 85% of the time we live pretty separate lives. |
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>>32547 |
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Is an eight storey fall long enough to kill you? Thinking of killing myself at work tomorrow. Over the railing on the 8th floor, direct hit to the hard atrium floor. I'm fucking losing it. I want to kill myself in as dramatic a way as possible to prove a point. Or would abusing fly spray solvent be better? Solvent abuse CAN kill instantly, plus the poisons help. I'm really not well but can clearly see death is my best option. Probably won't kill myself but the thought is ever present. I hate my life I hate everyone and everything in my life, I've tried for 30 years and it's just getting worse. I've accepted that suicide is my fate. |
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>>32577 |
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Thanks for the concerns lads, had a sleep, won't do anything silly for now. I've just left a job where since May I'd been off on sick. Lots of time for video games and doing stuff I want to do, but financially it was becoming untenable. |
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(Going to just try and get a few things off my mind here, might be a bit of a vague ramble, but it would be nice to know if anyone relates to any of it.) |
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>>32586 |
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32588
Officially back to single life lads. Had been sort of clinging on to a hope things would magically sort themselves out over the last few weeks, but we've finally had that "yeah no it's definitely over" chat. |
>> | No. 32597
32597
Saturday 28 November 2015 was the day my life ended. The day I pretended to not see my girlfriend when I was meant to meet up with her, but felt bad about ghosting and rang her and met up. I've been stuck with this tedious cunt for nearly 8 years but I'm not in a position to leave and I don't want to leave her struggling to pay bills and stuff if I did move out. Just got to put up with her forever. Give her kids. How did I end up so deeply involved in the very existence I planned on avoiding? |
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>>32597 |
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>>32600 |
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32608
Fucking Christ. Nothing like a little binge eating relapse to make you realise why you stopped. I can't even make myself throw up like someone with a proper eating disorder, I'm just a stupid bastard. It was fucking shit food too. |
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>>32608 |
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32621
I spoke to my dad over the phone. It's weird. He wants me to call every week, but he never calls me. If I don't call him for two months he won't ring me. If I call after that two months he lectures me on not keeping in touch. The rest of the family also don't really communicate with me either. The onus is always on me to initiate contact. He said in the call to ring my brothers immediately afterwards, but I know phone calls with them are very stilted so I messaged instead. To be honest I prefer communicating over IM instead of over the phone. Then 20 minutes later my dad tried to ring me. I know it's to bollock me for not ringing my brothers. It just does my head in. And shit like him nobody in my family visiting me since 2016, yet I am expected to visit them several times a year. I probably sound entitled and selfish but it does my head in. There are times where I've called, my dad'll say he'll get back to me when he's finished walking the dogs, then he doesn't ring at all. |
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>>32621 |
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32623
A couple of months ago I posted in here about relationships, boundaries, dealing with people who don't respect your boundaries, and so on. |
>> | No. 32628
32628
Got into a bit of a dalliance with a lass at work. She has a boyfriend she's just bought a house with. |
>> | No. 32629
32629
I want to kill myself, I've stockpiled loads of meds so I have the means, I'm scared it will just give me brain damage and I won't die, also I'm scared if I do kill myself I'll go hell because I was told that the worst sin is suicide and I don't want an etertinity in hell but equally staying alive is not an appealing prosspect, IO don't believe in God or anything bnut I don't want to t go to hell |
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>>32629 |
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>>32630>>32631>>32632 |
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Is it cheating if your girlfriend sexually assaults another woman? |
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>>32636 |
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That's cheating, ladm9. Extract yourself from the situation. |
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>>32637 |
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>>32635>>32633 |
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>>32640 |
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Doubt.jpg For a mere moment I'm taken in by the illusion; dark hair highlighting the shape of the head, striking colours, the expression of self that describes this person as different - as interesting. But then I doubt myself and realise she's merely human. It's just hair, it's just clothes, it's just powdered rock. What would it matter how a person applies these things to themselves? |
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>>32642 |
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>>32644 |
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32646
I posted some time ago about my brother strangling me during an altercation regarding the disciplining of his son. I can't seem to find the post anywhere here. |
>> | No. 32647
32647
How do you get over someone you still see all the time? |
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>>32647 |
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>>32647 |
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32650
No offence, but I fucking hate you. You lot are basically all right, you aren't especially evil, stupid or boring, but I hate all of you. I think there are fewer than ten people I've met in life who I actually got on with, but I'm far too much of an insipid, lazy, emotionally stunted, fuckwit to have been actual friends with them. And like I said, you lot are nice, mostly, so imagine how I feel about the shower out there? These barely literate misery machines that call make up Britain? Christ, the whole damned world even! And I'm worse than all of them, because I'm here complaining, in the full knowledge that tomorrow I'll wake up and be just as much of an oxygen thief as ever. It makes me wish I was rotting the fucking dirt. |
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>>32646 |
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>>32650 |
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>>32653 |
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image_2023-10-11_190227411.png I mentioned in another thread a while ago that I fucked up my leg. I consider myself pretty resourceful and I can usually remain happy throughout not-so-ideal situations, but this has been rather shit. |
>> | No. 32656
32656
I have to travel 60 miles on Saturday morning to attend an all-day domestic abuse awareness course thanks to my poisonous harpy of an ex. It's abysmal how I keep finding myself at these low points in life, abandoned and/or dropped into the thick of it by those I'd been twisted into trusting. |
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>>32656 |
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I'm in a really bad place mentally, I've finally moved to a new mental health team which should have happened 10 months ago (they dithered and dithered until I made a formal complaint at which point it happened in a week), I got an appointment with the psych doctor on 31/10, all systems go. Yesterday I rang them because I was in a state where I was a potential danger to myself, they told me how good the doctor I'm seeing was and how he'd sort me out. |
>> | No. 32659
32659
This is going to be more of a vent than anything else because I'm currently in limbo. |
>> | No. 32660
32660
I have run out of money completely and my phone has decided to pack up. I am very grateful to be alive.* |
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>>32659 |
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>>32661 |
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cyclupsalbundy.jpg I think it is at the core of my overall existential anguish the last couple of years, that I've basically become my dad. |
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>>32663 |
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>>32663 |
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>>32663 |
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32667
My face doesn't work. I don't smile or talk enough so my face doesn't work. |
>> | No. 32672
32672
Fallen in love with someone who's in a relationship. She feels the same about me, but isn't going to leave her partner. |
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32673
I'm meant to be visiting my family in a couple of weeks due to one of them having a birthday. I work full time normal office hours. Going Friday to Sunday - the Friday I am going after work. This means I won't arrive until 9PMish. I did look into getting the day off so I can get there earlier, but there was no leave available. |
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>>32673 |
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>>32674 |
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32676
How to stop saying "sorry"? I feel like apologise for everything. My girlfriend knocked a glass bottle off the work top and the contents went everywhere, and my first response was to apologise. She later asked to borrow more money than I actually have because she was doing something she never told me about and assumed I would get paid sooner than I actually do. Again, I apologised. Even though I know I'm not in the wrong my first response to anything like that is apologise. |
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>>32676 |
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>>32676 |
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My mum is in voluntary admission to have her schizophrenia treated. Again. |
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>>32679 |
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>>32679 |
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>>32681 |
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32683
I think something terrible is happening to me and I won't survive it. |
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>>32683 |
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32685
Want to cut my cock off so I don't have the obligation to knock up my ugly tedious girlfriend. |
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>>32685 |
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32687
I'm fucked. Can't work because my mental health is so bad, can't get mental health help without waiting years. I feel like this is the beginning of the end for me. I just feel horrible all the time. |
>> | No. 32689
32689
I know she was bad for me but I miss her. When will it stop hurting lads. |
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>>32689 |
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32692
Do you ever feel like in social situations the onus is mainly on you to start a conversation, otherwise you're sat there in silence? Maybe the other person has given up trying because I'm not doing enough to try and carry a conversation when they start it and I need to reflect on that, but I feel like I've been written off as quiet/boring at work. |
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>>32692 |
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>>32692 |
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Ex trying to stay friendly with me, but I don;t have the willpower to tell her to shove it up her arse because deep down I am too lonely to reject the conversation or companionship. Fucking cunt knows what she's doing. She's after something, she only ever uses people like she was using me all that time, and I don't see any logical reason she'd want to remain friends with me if the apparent antipathy between us was strong enough that the relationship couldn't be salvaged. |
>> | No. 32696
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Awa 01.jpg Remember when I found the Youtube channel of that woman I was/am infatuated with? How y'all thought I was a creepy stalker and all that? Well we got together in the end - Nah joking, but I had a dream about her last night and feel a little troubled about it. |
>> | No. 32697
32697
Someone who started in my office a month after me is now two rows of the ladder above me. This is common for a few people now who have gone on to get promotions while I've mostly circled the drain unable to secure a career promotion although I get to the interview stage. A lot of people I've nurtured are now the same rank as me and puzzled on why I'm still where I am. I don't know what compelled me but I had the urge to check up on a woman who rejected me when I was younger - yep she's doing very well for herself, has a nice house and now on a second successful career, looks fit, partner etc. |
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>>32697 |
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>>32697 |
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Should I let the self-diagnosed pancreatic cancer kill me or jump off a local landmark? Either way, I'm done with showering. |
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>>32700 |
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32703
With absolute clarity and years of consideration, I've determined my only option is suicide. I hate my girlfriend I hate my family I hate my job I have no hobbies I have no reason to go on. Thinking of throwing myself off the atrium balcony near my desk, I'm sure a 9 storey drop would be guaranteed to finish me off. I don't belong in this world, maybe the after life will be kinder to me. |
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>>32703 |
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>>32703 |
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32706
I've been summoned to a "capability assessment" for my job due to excess absence. Essentially in the first two months of employment, early on I had a couple of weeks off due to my disability which wasn't being properly supported by the NHS. Since I have got that NHS support, I have only missed one day due to a virus. Unfortunately this day was the straw that broke the camel's back. So I have to present my case to a manager to prove I am not too disabled to work. I've lost two other jobs to this before. I don't think I'm too disabled to work, but it's shit because if I am, I can't get enough support from the state to sustain my existence. I fucking need to work to live. |
>> | No. 32707
32707
I've had some pretty decent news at work today, but I don't feel like I can share it with my girlfriend because she's come home in a shit mood and her needs always have to come before my own. |
>> | No. 32708
32708
Everywhere is blasting out Christmas music, including my usual sanctuary of the library (what the fuck?) |
>> | No. 32709
32709
On and off over the last few months I have been grappling with my relationships with women and how it's related with my mental ups and downs. I'm determined to work out and resolve the various shades of bitterness and resentment I hold over the way women have treated me in the past, and indeed the way that society in general seems to permit women to treat men, but I don't know if I am making progress or backsliding. You can probably join up some of the posts. |
>> | No. 32710
32710
>>32659 here again with a brief update. |
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>>32710 |
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>>32710 |
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>>32710 |
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>>32711 |
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>>32714 |
>> | No. 32716
32716
I've been drinking and looking through Facebook. Found pictures of a girl who totally fucked up my head but I am probably still in love with, even though she's had be blocked for 6 years. I know dwelling in the past in unhelpful, but I think about her a lot. Even though she manipulated me and treated me like shit, I just want her back in my life. |
>> | No. 32717
32717
>>32716 |
>> | No. 32718
32718
Dad died this morning. Knew it was imminent, but it's still fucked me up a bit. He was a good dad and I'm going to miss him. |
>> | No. 32719
32719
>>32718 |
>> | No. 32720
32720
Apparently I can't sleep anymore. It's been 4 days. At most I've had 3-4 hours each night, but all broken up, waking up within 40-60 minutes with intense anxiety. My dreams are usually fucked so I'm wondering if I've had some bad ones my brain has just erased and now subconciously I'm scared of sleeping. Usually I'd use weed but I'm unable to right now. Booze at least is helping me relax but it's terrible for sleep quality and anxiety. It seems to be a perfect storm, almost calculated. I'm not even 100% sure this isn't a dream right now. Interesting stuff. |
>> | No. 32721
32721
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>> | No. 32722
32722
Mum is getting divorced for the third time. I'm trying to be supportive, but it's draining to keep having the same conversations about the same mistakes. I'm just fucking bored of it. |
>> | No. 32723
32723
>>32722 |
>> | No. 32724
32724
image_2023-11-25_113827223.png I've been at orange for about 15 years, now. |
>> | No. 32725
32725
I can't get my life straight. Things went tits-up about 6 months ago when I walked away from a £45k dream job on some frivolous pursuit. My then-partner thought it was a good idea. |
>> | No. 32726
32726
I've been giving a formal written warning by work. In my 12 weeks of employment, I had 15 days off sick. Which is admittedly a lot. Had to have an hour long interview about it, tbh in most places I would have been shitcanned, so they are actually quite understanding. At least more understanding than many jobs I've been in. But now I have to go a year without any sickness beyond "reasonable sickness". But now I'm terrified of getting sick and getting sacked. I don't know what "reasonable sickness" entails. |
>> | No. 32727
32727
>>32724 |
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32728
>>32727 |
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32729
>>32718 |
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>>32729 |
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32731
>>32730 |
>> | No. 32732
32732
One of you wrote, I think in the online dating thread, maybe in here, all the way back in October that you'd "missed the boat". But, honestly, I've not just missed the boat, but I've slept through my alarm and missed the bus service that was meant to take me to the docks. Just completely pissed away every opportunity I've had, it's pathetic, really. |
>> | No. 32733
32733
>>32732 |
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32734
>>32732 |
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32735
>>32734 |
>> | No. 32737
32737
I feel like no matter how hard I try, I always end up failing. I fucked up uni, I fuck up every job I'm in, I'm absolutely not fit for this world. I know God is punishing me for not living a kind and pious life, and he is mocking me. I'm trying to work out a form of suicide that will have minimal impact on others. Get the train to Skeggy, mix a few packs of diazepam with some booze, and disappear at sea. I don't know. Maybe if I hanged myself in my bedroom people might think it was a cheeky bit of autoerotic asphyxiation instead of suicide. Some people were not supposed to live. It's just fate. |
>> | No. 32738
32738
>>32737 |
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>>32738 |
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>>32738 |
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>>32739 |
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>>32734 |
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>>32746 |
>> | No. 32748
32748
ELxn7RGVUAATuTn.jpg I'm going to say it: I fucking hate being single at Christmas. I can't sleep because I'm thinking of apologising to a woman I left nearly a year ago because I'm lonely and nothing has worked out with other women since. |
>> | No. 32749
32749
image_2023-12-13_094530420.png >>32748 |
>> | No. 32750
32750
Probably deserving of its own thread but here it is. The Mrs (of around five months) is approaching the end of her chances to have kids. She's looking into treatments to try anyway. She's going to do this with or without me. I'm not keen enough on the idea to be certain I want to donate my own genetic material and I'm even less sure I want to be involved with someone else's for the next two decades. Especially if I change my mind in the future and then will be effectively hitched to someone who can't help. I suppose if I end things with her I'm going to be (semi-justifiably) accused of wasting her time but I can't think of a more sensible alternative in this situation. I'm not economically or emotionally ready for that and if I ever am, staying means I can never do it if I do reach that point. |
>> | No. 32751
32751
>>32749 |
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32752
>>32749 |
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32753
>>32752 |
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32754
>>32753 |
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32755
>>32754 |
>> | No. 32767
32767
Something about the Brianna Ghey thing is really playing on my mind. I don't know why. I'm not trans. I have no trans friends. The texts between the two killers where they're joking and planning the murder, it's really fucked up. I struggle to understand "evil". Why do people do evil things? Can they be redeemed? I know God forgives all, but do some people even deserve forgiveness? Like the parents of that disabled girl who literally rotted to death from neglect. Or the bloke who burned his house down to kill his family. Surely they need to pay for their morally wrong actions. |
>> | No. 32768
32768
>>32767 |
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>>32768 |
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>>32769 |
>> | No. 32771
32771
Big Elvis.jpg For a while I've been complaining about lacking a sense of community online, with suggestions to join gaming groups being the most obvious |
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32772
>>32771 |
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32773
>>32768 |
>> | No. 32774
32774
I feel very numb. I'm thinking of breaking up with my girlfriend because I don't really feel anything towards her. She exists I suppose. If she lives or dies, I don't care. The only issue is we live together and she pays half the bills, so she is necessary for my continued existence. I'm spending New Years with my family, who I also don't really care about. If I never saw any of them again I don't think I'd be bothered. I don't have any friends and I don't give a shit about my job other than it gives me money to buy beer and video games. Is it even worth me being alive if the only joy I have is getting pissed and playing on my Playstation? I find people tedious. All my social interactions I say what I imagine they expect/want me to say, I imagine it's like Persona and if I make the right choice in conversation I gain social points. Not sure what I gain from these social points though. |
>> | No. 32775
32775
>>32774 |
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>>32774 |
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>>32775 |
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>>32777 |
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>>32778 |
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>>32779 |
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32781
>>32780 |
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32782
>>32781 |
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32783
>>32782 |
>> | No. 32784
32784
>The fact that you've got a job and a partner and you're basically functioning as a member of society is a real achievement given the severity of your illness. I hope that doesn't come across as patronising - I suffer from chronic severe depression, I know a lot of people who suffer from psychosis and I'm genuinely impressed by whatever coping skills you've learned and used to hold your life together. |
>> | No. 32788
32788
On holiday with my family. Weird dynamic. My dad is a great guy, but he's really fucked up me and my older brother. Not the sole reason for us being fucked up, but definitely a big part. But I've never discussed it with my brother. |
>> | No. 32789
32789
>>32788 |
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32790
>>32789 |
>> | No. 32802
32802
I've realised why I'm not taking any action to avoid the shit tsunami that's heading right for me as I write this. Because I have no future, whether or not I avoid it, there's nothing to move on to. My life in five years is still going to be a smoldering pile of old bollocks, so who cares? The fucking waste of it all is impossible for me to properly accept as well, because if I do so the only rational option is an attempt at extreme outdoor gymnastics. All the fucking studying and earning and socialising I've not done, it's haunting. I need to talk to someone about it, but there's no kind of state funded "unfuck your life" service out there. |
>> | No. 32803
32803
>>32802 |
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32804
>>32803 |
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32805
>>32804 |
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32806
>>32805 |
>> | No. 32810
32810
This is a weird moan. |
>> | No. 32811
32811
>>32810 |
>> | No. 32812
32812
I have a real issue of separating my heart from my head when it comes to women, or more specifically love. |
>> | No. 32814
32814
>>32812 |
>> | No. 32815
32815
"Going with your heart" is cope; would your heart not implore you to be sensible? Do you not owe it to your undiscovered parter to understand yourself more holistically, than to sprint forward in the direction of your erection? Imagine doing that with a supermarket; "Oh, life cannot be a mere shopping list! Fools are we, to that which falls within our trolley!" |
>> | No. 32816
32816
>>32815 |
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>>32816 |
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>>32817 |
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>>32818 |
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>>32819 |
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>>32822 |
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>>32823 |
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>>32824 |
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>>32825 |
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>>32828 |
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>>32829 |
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>>32830 |
>> | No. 32832
32832
pkj.jpg >>32831 |
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>>32831 |
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32834
>>32832 |
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>>32830 |
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>>32831 |
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>>32835 |
>> | No. 32839
32839
Bitterlad has kind of a point but for the wrong reasons. I had a similar relationship where I think at first she felt in control because she was out of my league and could do better than me. Over time she realised I was the one with my shit together and better trajectory in life and that made her insecure because she didn't have the upper hand any more, so she tried to make me feel insecure too. |
>> | No. 32840
32840
My now ex is her own worse enermy. I had no doubt of her love for me or integrity. But she would spend huge amounts of time being miserable on the idea that I might leave her. To the point that I ended up leaving her. |
>> | No. 32841
32841
>>32825 |
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32842
>>32841 |
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32843
>>32842 |
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32844
>>32843 |
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>>32844 |
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32846
>>32844 |
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32847
>>32845 |
>> | No. 32848
32848
c01-3327916238.jpg >>32845 |
>> | No. 32849
32849
Matronly women who want a cuddly-wuddly pissboy for a partner do exist, arguably totherlad's problem is just that he hasn't found one yet. |
>> | No. 32850
32850
>>32849 |
>> | No. 32851
32851
>>32848 |
>> | No. 32852
32852
Had coaching with my manager for my call centre job. He said I am too cold and sound lacking in empathy. Even though in the call we listened to I solved the problem. I have a monotonous voice and muted emotional expression because I am literally diagnosed with autism. He said my communication is too transactional. I try not to see my autism as too much of a hindrance but after today I fucking hate what I am. |
>> | No. 32853
32853
>>32852 |
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32854
>>32852 |
>> | No. 32855
32855
Freak loser poor cunt retard. |
>> | No. 32856
32856
>>32855 |
>> | No. 32857
32857
After heavy social interaction I feel like a cunt and need an awful lot of reassurance. I've just won a prize for an (online) event and I feel completely undeserving, like the game was rigged in my favour, that people are laughing at me, and that's it's all overwhelming. |
>> | No. 32858
32858
>>32857 |
>> | No. 32859
32859
attachment_styles.png >>32857 |
>> | No. 32863
32863
I'm getting a bit of a sweat on since a debt collector has just contacted me, but it's over a debt that I incurred in 2011, didn't pay, and for which I eventually got a CCJ, which has been 'served' as of a couple of years ago at least. |
>> | No. 32864
32864
>>32863 |
>> | No. 32865
32865
On the topic of debt collectors, I recently got a vaguely threatening email from a company trying to collect 50 quid worth of seller's fees for an item I never actually sold on eBay. It turns out I left the listing up and forgot about it for ages, someone had tried to buy it and evidently ended up just getting it refunded, and I was none the wiser to any of it because it's an old email address I never check. |
>> | No. 32873
32873
How do you forget the past? I'm so caught up on the good times in the past, I'm incredibly depressed that my current life is so miserable. I think back to old flames, to my student days, even back to elements of secondary school (where I did have lots of terrible times) and I think I was happier then than now. I probably wasn't but I look back with rose tinted glasses, at those times I had hope and optimism, instead of now where I'm staring at another 45 years of being a wagie then living out my retirement on a pittance. I've fucked up every opportunity in my life. |
>> | No. 32874
32874
>>32873 |
>> | No. 32875
32875
I feel so tired all of the time, like never enough to sleep but enough to put me off doing anything. Not that I sleep great when I do sleep |
>> | No. 32876
32876
>>32875 |
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32877
>>32875 |
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32878
>>32877 |
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32879
>>32877 |
>> | No. 32880
32880
1704612861656666.png You must be getting fed up by now of hearing how I'm sabotaging relationships before they've had time to develop, so here's another one just to lay it on extra thick. |
>> | No. 32881
32881
>>32880 |
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32882
>>32788 |
>> | No. 32883
32883
>>32882 |
>> | No. 32891
32891
I'm not going to kill myself, definitely not while I still have family that depend on me, but I really, really wish I didn't exist anymore. |
>> | No. 32892
32892
I'm a stupid piece of shit and started self harming again regularly. Yesterday I used my favoured tactic of heating a blade with a lighter until it's very hot, then holding it against my skin. Did this a few times. Got big blisters then they burst now I've got red moist wounds on my arm that are oozing some sort of clear fluid. I want to die but I can't get over that fear of fucking up. I've got enough meds in my drawer to kill me, but what if I don't take enough and I just become a brain damaged monstrosity. I know self harm is incredibly cringe and gay but I struggle to fight the urge to do it. I took a day off work today because I had nightmares all night and I'm hearing voices telling me to jump off the balcony on my floor in the office and plummet 9 stories and smash my skull like an over ripe watermelon. I'm already on a performance plan at work because of my attendence. I literally don't understand how people can exist and be happy I haven't been happy since 2011 before I realised the true reality of the world and I'm sick of it all. I used to be scared of dying in a nuclear war but now I'd welcome it. Komm, süßer Tod. |
>> | No. 32893
32893
I find it difficult to make close and lasting friendships with other men. |
>> | No. 32894
32894
>>32893 |
>> | No. 32895
32895
>>32891 |
>> | No. 32896
32896
My mum was diagnosed with ADHD about eight years ago and went onto medication. Due to shortages, she hasn't been able to get her medication for the last two and a bit weeks. Seeing her has been surprisingly emotionally difficult. We had both sort of forgotten what she used to be like, what she was like for the whole of my childhood; seeing her like this has brought up a lot of stuff that we had both left in the past. I think she's a bit ashamed, realising how much she must have let me down over the years. Of course that's not her fault at all, but I feel a slight sense of grief at how things might have turned out differently for me if I had a mum who could be relied on. |
>> | No. 32897
32897
I was half tempted to post this in the weekday/end thread since it's happening now but better to post it here to not ruin the mood. Not exactly worth it's own thread since I suppose it happens to everyone. |
>> | No. 32898
32898
>>32897 |
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32899
>>32897 |
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32900
>>32898 |
>> | No. 32902
32902
My work's really stressing me out. |
>> | No. 32903
32903
>>32902 |
>> | No. 32910
32910
Any of you lads been in respiridone? The psych I saw today wants me to stop olanzapine and move to respiridone. |
>> | No. 32911
32911
>>32659>>32710 here again. |
>> | No. 32912
32912
>>32911 |
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32913
>>32912 |
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32914
>>32913 |
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32915
>>32914 |
>> | No. 32916
32916
I've only had four hours sleep, I feel a little bit queasy with anxiety, but weirdly I'm feeling quite positive. I feel ready for a big change, I'm just not sure what that change will be yet. |
>> | No. 32917
32917
>>32911 |
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32918
>>32917 |
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32919
>>32918 |
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32920
>>32919 |
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32921
>>32919>>32920 |
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32922
>>32921 |
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32923
>>32921 |
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32924
>>32921 |
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32925
>>32921 |
>> | No. 32926
32926
Thanks again lads. I've realised it's best not to do anything rash and focus on self-preservation, try and get some rest and some food down me to get my strength back. Then I can try and think more clearly about doing what's right for me and the kids. I've been crying on and off all morning, which I think is sheer exhaustion more than anything and frustration over the whole situation; as I've said, I don't feel heartbroken and I wouldn't have had any real problem if she simply left, it's just... this. |
>> | No. 32927
32927
>>32925 |
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32929
>>32927 |
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32930
>>32929 |
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32931
>>32929>>32930 |
>> | No. 32932
32932
I went a bit mental (more mental) a few weeks ago and, grabbing my moustache scissors from my desk, slashed them across my left forearm. I've self-harmed once before, when I was 13. Back then I wasn't motivated out of any kind of deep rage or angst, but because I was an idiot, all my mates were depressed emos and I thought "there must be something to all this", but the 2cm cut in my bicep hurt and I stopped immediately. |
>> | No. 32933
32933
>>32930 |
>> | No. 32934
32934
>>32929>>32930 |
>> | No. 32935
32935
My energy bill is starting to stress me out. I've tried keeping the heating down as much as I can over the winter, but my account still keeps getting further and further into debit and even when we get to the warmer months and I'm hardly using any, my monthly payment will still need to pretty much double to cover it. |
>> | No. 32936
32936
Could potentially be sacked next week. |
>> | No. 32937
32937
>>32936 |
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32938
>>32936 |
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32939
>>32937>>32938 |
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32940
>>32939 |
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32941
>>32939 |
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32942
>>32941 |
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32943
>>32942 |
>> | No. 32944
32944
First world war Drednaught battleship.jpg >>32880 |
>> | No. 32945
32945
>>32941 |
>> | No. 32948
32948
A new girl has started at work, and without going into detail, she reminds me of my ex in some very specific ways that make it really hard for me to spend much time around her without it opening up old wounds that were only just starting to feel healed. |
>> | No. 32949
32949
boy-with-clown-in-the-mirror-reflection-3974088789.jpg >>32945 |
>> | No. 32952
32952
>>32949 |
>> | No. 32953
32953
>>32911 here again. |
>> | No. 32954
32954
>>32953 |
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32955
>>32954 |
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32956
>>32953 |
>> | No. 32957
32957
I have my first civil service workplace disciplinary coming up where I may leave with an official written warning for my performance. I'm due to speak to my trade union rep and have started to build some evidence. I'm a bit lost, I don't know what to do and I feel miserable. I'm too old to lose my career. |
>> | No. 32958
32958
>>32957 |
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32959
>>32958 |
>> | No. 32960
32960
Bit of a vent. To make a long story short. I may have already posted about this some time. |
>> | No. 32961
32961
>>32960 |
>> | No. 32966
32966
I'm hearing voices tell me to attack people and rape people and kill myself and shout slurs at people of other races I've had them years but I'm not finding them as troublesome as normal as it's sort of a break from the drudgery of work/life. Maybe I should embrace the fucked up entity that lives in my head? |
>> | No. 32967
32967
>>32966 |
>> | No. 32968
32968
Saw the personality disorder team person and the psychiatrist today. Psych referred me to PD team, but PD team think my emotional disregulation is due to autism not PD. |
>> | No. 32969
32969
>>32957 |
>> | No. 32970
32970
I was talking to someone today whose child had recently died. I was being very sympathetic, but inside I was screaming "HA HA, DEAD KID CUNT, DEAD DEAD DEAD DEAD, SHIT ON HER GRAVE, FUCK YOU AND FUCK YOUR DEAD KID". |
>> | No. 32971
32971
>>32970 |
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32972
>>32971 |
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32973
>>32971 |
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32974
>>32970 |
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32975
>>32972 |
>> | No. 32976
32976
Saw the personality disorder team today for my second session of PD assessment. I told her I had a bad day and the only joy I got was the thought of going postal and gunning down my enemies. It's a bad thought an evil thought I know that. But those thoughts I increasingly get pleasure from them. She told me to imagine the people on a conveyor belt, and moving away from me, and dropping off the end. And she asked if that would help. But I told her it wouldn't because the people would still exist in reality. I told her I have thoughts to sexually assault and kill those who wrong me especially in the workplace and she said just put those thoughts on an imaginary leaf and watch it drift away down a stream. WHat I'm trying to say is fucking pointless. |
>> | No. 32977
32977
865505-bill-bailey-live-cosmic-jam-included-game-d.jpg >>32976 |
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32978
>>32975 |
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32979
>>32975 |
>> | No. 32980
32980
God, I hate having to be happy for people when I'm having a shit time. Why don't you have a shit time too, you selfish in love/new job/lost weight arseholes. |
>> | No. 32981
32981
Very much in a downward spiral tbh. I was holding on to have of pulling myself out slowly but things aren't improving and I'm just running out of the effort to keep gritting my teeth through it. |
>> | No. 32982
32982
I am day drinking. This is a new one. |
>> | No. 32983
32983
I've got my return to work tomorrow. I was off on Friday due to sickness (mental health). I got my final written warning about 3 weeks ago, where I am allowed one absence of up to three days every quarter for the next year. So I've got to not be unwell for three months. I'm very unwell mentally maybe the worst I've been in 12 years of mental illness. I don't really know how to answer the questions. They gave me shit last time for not using the counselling service they hire a third party company to do over the phone, even though I am certain that would be ineffective considering I'm under a mental health team who provide actual accredited talking and medical therapies. |
>> | No. 32984
32984
>>32983 |
>> | No. 32985
32985
Is it true they reduce the proportion of helium in commercially available cannisters nowadays? I'm at the end point now, and I think an exit bag is my best bet. |
>> | No. 32986
32986
>>32985 |
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32987
>>32986 |
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32988
>>32987 |
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32989
>>32987 |
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32990
>>32987 |
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32991
>>32990 |
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32992
>>32991 |
>> | No. 32993
32993
Do workplace occupational health services deal with mental health? My manager has refused to refer me to mine for months, saying he thinks it's just physical health. But I'd be pretty surprised if the occupational health service of a massive corporation in a building with probably 600 staff wouldn't deal with mental health as it's the biggest issue of the now. |
>> | No. 32999
32999
I'm feeling really torn and confused right now, I'd appreciate a bit of insight. Get ready for a wall of text. |
>> | No. 33000
33000
>>32999 |
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33001
>>32999 |
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33002
>>33000 |
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33003
>>32999 |
>> | No. 33004
33004
Thanks lads, think I needed a bit of a wake-up call. |
>> | No. 33005
33005
Being on benefits longterm is bad for my self esteem. I feel worthless. My day to day life is okay and I don't mind the idea of not really being anything when I grow up (I'm 35) but the idea that I might never share intimate connection with other people is upsetting. |
>> | No. 33006
33006
>>32999 |
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33007
>>33005 |
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33008
>>33006>>33007 |
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33009
>>33005 |
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33010
>>33009 |
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Been off sick for over a week. Checked my work emails this evening (bad idea). Someone has gone above my head and done something which has pissed off an already pissed off customer, now some cunt is emailing me and copying in my manager saying I need to sort it. |
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I feel with total clarity that I will take my own life this weekend. My partner is away for a few days so it's the perfect time to do it. I might not go through with it, I don't know. But I feel like life just isn't for me. I've tried for over 30 years. Enough's enough. I just want peace. |
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